I destroyed everything with my own hands...
Things are not going to be the same...
I want my blissful days back...
I want no secret between us...
I want her to treat me like a princess...
But, it's all over.
I will just quietly by her side and obey whatever instructions she gives.
I will just be a small speck of dust, hanging around you.
Afterall, I am the one who spoils everything.
Cruel enough, I wasn't given a second chance as fair as I gave her in the past.
I am told not to interfer with her life.
I am told not to ask who she is hanging out or talking to.
I am told not to force her to do things.
I am told not a say a thing about our relationship anymore in social platform.
I am told to follow her schedule, if she's free, she will meet me.
I can't cry anymore... I am not allowed to...
I am uselss... I am not like your favorite girl who can manupulate relationship so well that u dont even hate her when she turn u down and say real nasty things to u in the past and u still shield her, treating her a special person. She can throw temper when u nv accompany her in the past even she is not ur gf, yet you are tired after all these years.
Perhaps, I am just a spare tyre afterall.
I know it, since day 1. Just I refused to admit it.
It's my fault for really fallen for you, I have no choice anymore.
Treat me like whatever you want, I won't make a sound anymore in the future.
Gwen is dead. Bobi is dead. Lao Po is dead. Baby is dead.
I am lifelessdoll.
