Memories flashing back... words you said during that period make sense now...
Lina Khoo 又再愛妳 折磨是我自己April 26 at 4:30am
Lina Khoo 世界上最遥远的距离 不是我不能说我爱妳 而是想妳痛彻心脾 却只能深埋心底April 26 at 4:00am
These are all for her... I know you will deny.. but your subconscious is thinking of her...
Everything happened during that period, a period which I placed my total trust in you.
I thought everything will be fine, as long as I trust, as long as we love eachother...
But things just dont work that way I guess.
I used to jealous over you and her being so close to eachother and calling eachother dear and darling though she is married.
But, never I think of that your feeling for her is so strong that you actually confessed.
If memories didnt fail me, it was that period that she share her problem of her relationship with you that makes your heartache and wanting to protect her.
Even so, it is not something I could forgive you easily.
While I was thinking through everything before I decide to forgive you, I thought of few solutions:
1. Continue with you, but just dating and flirting, no sting attach.
2. Just pretend to love you and suck your money dry.
3. Start all over from dating.
4. Forgive and continue where we were and love you.
5. Forget everything about us.
In the end I chose 4... just because you cried and it breaks my heart...
If I am to tell the truth, I am seriously not sure how much love I could place with you already.
It hurts me too much this time, so much that I cant cry, or even trying to avoid thinking it.
It's as though you 2 have betrayed me...
Just why love have to be so complex. Why cant people just love 1 and only, at least, try to love 1 and only.
I did my share of being loyal, you failed.
It's not my fault if I decide to change one day, you are the one caused it.
