It's so hard to struggle with what is on my mind... my reluctant of going to school... I duno why juz so dislike sch at this point... perhaps lecturers had hurt me too much...but oh well, they have to rights to critic u... :(
Got a feeling of I am just doing a piece of junkie project... dont like... I am still quite lost with everything and anything... there are so much things I dont like in design field... like getting detailing and technical drawings....they are always the pain in the ass for me.... =(
What to do... haiz... I felt so dead even though dear is there for me...and trying to motivate me... :(
Everytime when I work into the nite, I felt like I am gona dying from the feeling of emptiness and loneliness... perhaps I rely too much on dear... perhaps I am a weakling... I duno... why everything just seems so tough for me...
I think I am getting all my depression back... I need a shrink... =(
haiz...*hides up and cry*
I hate school... I hate everything... I hate my life...
