I feel uber moody... I duno why... though I know the reason... lol...
Maybe I tried too hard to unroot you... making myself so messy now...
My heart feels tight and stuffy, I cant breathe... feel like puking...
Removing you is same as removing oxygen...
But I duno how to cure...
I tried to go onto IRC to meet other guys/girls... but none could move my heart... I try to flirt.. but I feel guilty...
I feel like cutting up myself badly... everytime I think of you, and I will cut myself... but, I guess I will only get addicted to cutting myself... lol...
I am hopelessly in love with you... yet I know nothing will happen no matter how much I love you...
I sux...
I really really feel like vanishing...
I cant face you anymore... I dont wana go school...
I hate myself trying to search for you in school... I hate myself for being loss at words when seeing you... I hate that I regret and cry when I think about you when I am alone...
Even that 4 months holiday could get you outta my heart...
I feel so... lost...
But who could understand me...
He is old enough to be my dad. This is all you guys said.
I know I shouldnt like him.. I should stop... but, you think it's possible...?
I really cant...
You guys will never understand how much pain I am going through and yet still trying to juggle with my farking school projects and friendships...
I just wana dump everything and hide myself up and yet I cant...
I hate being such a powerless human.
Might as well let me die already...
