Wednesday nite was tiring sia... been rushing project.... tuesday nite rushing for research studies, and overnite at ben's hse with CQ... Ben was so nice until cook supper for us... XDDD noodle and eggy... not instant noodle o... XDDD
We were doing RS and history.. so tiring sia... =/
After that rush to sch... den after waiting for presentation... we were kinda angry coz we didnt managed to present as there were simply too much of them who gona present... we wait till 6.30pm when our lesson was suppose to end at 4.30pm... 2.30pm to 6.30pm... no breaks, though we did sneak out to makan... XDDD
After that, I rushed home to do exhibition... until morning, even skipped morning lesson for the sake of it...managed to squeeze out smthg to show teacher... @@;;;
When I reached school, ben and CQ were still rushing... I helped them do the concept... haha.. I am famous for typing concept in class... XDDD
after that they went to print their stuffs... I already printed... They asked me to buy them some time by discuss with the teachers longer.. so they can manage to print...
That day I did kinda dressed up abit... put on my new year clothings and put on a bigger girlish earring... when I entered the class, my classmates all waaaaaaaaaaaaah at me... asking if I am going for a date or what... even teachers oso turned and looked at me lor.. >/////<
so paiseh. -_____-;;; yea, i know, I am not suitable for lady look... blekkk...
After that was anothe round of project rushing... refer to the post below...
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Now tink of it...I think I know why the other day Ben let me stay at his hse, and the other day nv... coz... I got no use for the 2nd day... I cant do modeling well... all I can do was concept... which was what they need for the 1st overnite session...
I understand liao... I am nothing but a free concept tool to them... I cant help them in other things but to entertain them and help their english stuffs... I remember helping them to write concept even when I am not done with my projects... I remember I couldnt really finish up that subject... I am so dumb.
I hate human. Everyone is so disgusting... Everyone make use of eachother... Is there anyone true out there..?
I know I may have faults... but I really use real heart and true feelings to make friends with people around... why everyone disappoints me again and again... Being a true friend is it really so hard..?
I trusted everyone... but,how many percentage of the things I trusted is true..?
I am tired. I wont believe anyone anymore...
But then again, I awis say that, yet I cant bring myself to be that cruel... haiz...
It's is just like my view for love.. I told myself I am not gona fall in love... I had enough from such things... but yet, again, I will fall in love... no matter how much my ex hurt me.. I still will love her... I still will worried about her... No matter my current crush and previoius crush ignore me or hurt me in their words... I will still be waiting for them... why should I be so dumb.
Why...
If only I am more selfish, and more cruel... I guess I wont be hurt so much...
Is it worth to sacrifice for these people...? Or rather not sacrifice, it sounds too noble... I should say, should I do so much for these people..?
I don't know... I am afraid to find the answer... If yes, it worth, then I will have to continue enduring all the pains.... If no, it don't worth, then I will be so disappointed with the people around me and feeling so dumb....
Haiz... human are really lousiest living creature....
