So pek chek the whole day...
Guess due to I was overnite-ing at Ben's hse and didnt get to slp much and lotsa stress...
From morning I been throwing temper, being farking hot tempered, and upset over small matters. -_____-;;;
I feel neglected when CQ dun pay attention to me and talk to Ben more.. I think I am jealous... lol... shit, I awis love ppl to pay attention to me... =___=;;
I get upset when I talk abt XXXXX and nobody replies me... -____-; or rather I get MAD when they dun reply... lol....
I heard some juicy stuffs from Alicia via msn chat.. so long nv chat with her... haha
Some impt person in our school is a lesb too... XP
Everytime I wanted to put an end to my crazy crushing towards XXXXX... I will failed.. Everytime I see him, my heart still thumps like duno WTF. =_____=;;; damn, stop torturing me... =/ stop being so.................... shuai! XDDDDD LMAO.
Today while having a lesson on the 2nd floor, halfway ben and CQ go out... say go drink water, watashi in classroom rotting, suddenly CQ called me... ask me quickly come out to see HIM....
That time I was abit foul mood... but the moment I heard that there is chance to meet him... I quickly run out of the class despite my lappy is on the table lor... lolx... He was having some course on the 3rd floor, which I could easily see him from 2nd floor by raising my head.
He is having a small tea break.. ahh.... every action of him is so cute... makaning, drinking... lol...
Tmr will get to see him directly... not sure if my heart can take it... lmao...
I seriously miss him... but I am trying to hide it up...
I duno how to respond when I see him... and I am incredibly upset as he nv email me... =/
sometimes I think I am good for nothing... nobody will reply my feelings despite I put in so much to the feeling.... =/
Anyway,I should be rushing project... but I got no motivations.... haiz....
I seriously need a decent break from everything and go out to meet someone who is not related to NaFA.... lmao. I had enough of farking nafa.... the place that brings me most misery... and the place which made me lost someone dear... all bcoz of ur farking schedule and farking project load. DAMN U!!!!!!!
ARGH.... go do proj... =____=
