Hmm... actually, was already lying on bed... preparing to slp le.. but, I got up and went toilet...
After that.. I on my monitor... and trying my luck to see if she's on9... She really there... =)
I stared at her nick for a while.. thinking of should I talk to her anot... in the end, I still went to talk to her...
I just wana accompany her... even we didnt talk much...
I miss her alot... yet I am afraid to show it out... I am afraid I will scare her away... how pathetic I am... =/
She used to promise she will visit me end of year.. but she just told me she cant make it...
I am sad.. but I nv blame her... I got no rights to blame her...
My mood starts to turn dark again... feeling shut myself up again... maybe I shall shut myself up after LYA gathering...
I think... it is really hard for me to really fall in love in another person anymore... coz...
I only love you....
