Sorry...
I am taking your jokes too serious... I didnt expect that birthday sms was a joke... I tot you plainly dont wana address me as what you did last time...
I used to update u abt myself... but, i am afraid u will find me sticky.. bugging.. a pest... relaying on u... I myself is struggling inside me too... but.. i know.. these all sounds like excuses to u... maybe.. the communication between us has broke down...
I know.. I am mean in my words... and u are mean to me too... we are just hurting eachothers due to misunderstanding...
I am sad...
I used to think I know u and understand u more than anyone else.. but.. ever since u started working.. u totally shut me off from ur world...
I really duno what I mean to u... though... i am not contacting u.. but every actions u does makes alot impact on me.. i bet u nv realise abt it... i dont even know u are at my blog... sometime i pm u in frenster.. u dont even reply me... even though u got login frenster.. u know how i feel..? I tot u are treating me transparent! i sms u.. u oso nv reply me... the more i try to contact u.. the more depress i get... the more i feel that i am not exist in ur world...
i didnt wan u to feel that i am pressuring u... i know forcing u too much might cause u to leave me too... but letting u too loose will get the same result. please tell me how i am suppose to do... in order not to lose u...
Afterall... all is my fault bah... I am the meaniest... the selfishiest, the eviliest... whatever... (i know alot of the words i type does not exsist... dont correct me... -___-)
Gwen sux!! XDDD
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wanted to do my projects and club things de... but... i am in a depression now... =) so... i gona.. FUCK CARE EVERYTHING for the time being... dont worry.. i will still print out whatever i shld.. n do whatever i shld... during next tuesday meeting... i am not that irresponsible...
