Hmm.. I think I fell into depression... but... it is not on the outside.. the depression is hidden somewhere inside me... seems serious... silent and deadly one I guess.. keke...
Hmm.. kk.. blog smthg abt me....
Damn.. I got a pimple on my CHEST.... above my boobs lah.. lolx... this is the first time I having pimples on place that is not on my face!!! XDDD *snaps a foto to keep* XDDD
Anyway, school as busy as usual... but, I like procceed everyday without an aim... without a target... I feel lost.. O_o;; People whom I love is not beside me... and somemore quarrelled with me.. hehe.. maybe I deserves it... I dont worth anyone's love... I am suppose to be lovelessmonster... lolx.. omg.. I shld blog normally.. why am I back to such topic again... duhz...
anyway, i nv mention I went to see Yang Mi Kyung right? hehe.. she's a nice lady too... I like her.. but, somehow she dont really attracts me that much... maybe is the language barrier... and maybe is the club that makes me dont feel so comfortable to hang around... but anyway... I will try to aid them as much as I can... =)
Got her autograph and took quite a no. of photos of her... =D everyone is bugging me to send them the original copies... I am not gona send them.. except for 2 seniors who did the most for the club. But if let me know that they leak the photos... I will 100% guranttee plus chop that... I will leave the club. =) I hate ppl who abuse my kindness... I am sick of being a good person leh... coz I hardly get anything nice in return nowdays... =/ okok.. lya fan club ppl have been real good to me.. that I know.. =D and I know flo is very good to me oso... my sec sch fren been caring for me too.. though they hardly talk with me liao...
actually..duno.. i sounds fake. lolx.. actually... i dont feel any love at all... sometimes ppl like wana give me the care and concern.. but.. I somehow... shy it away... like my technical teacher trying to ask what happened to me... y I dont wana go sch and things liddat.. but I just smile back... I know he is trying to be good... =)
I awis say I wan care n concern.. but when ppl shower me with that.. i tend to run away.. so contridicting huh? =) sometimes.. how I wish I can just dig out my heart... and give to someone else who needs it more... but, i got a black heart which nobody wants.. haha...
Today when I was walking home... I suddenly got a tot... I must admit that god gave me a very useful brain. Not that I am boasting or what.. I admit my brain can works real well if I use it properly. I can pick things up real fast... and absorb the knowledge fast... but.. too bad.. it has a poor owner like me... I used it in a wrong way.. I tend to think too far.. and too deep.. and too much. Some ppl whom know me will say that they think I am a very deep person...haha..
Maybe I am those kinda people who will ask big questions like... Why am I here? Why is there human/living things? Why is there Earth? Why are we being created when everyone has to die one day? Why do we work so hard when we have to die? Why is there love? Why is there female and male? Why is there poor and rich? Why is there so many things to ask in the world? XDDD
fine fine fine.. Gwen.. get ur butt off the pc chair and go fucking draw your INTERIOR!! -____________-;;
You dont even have the freaking time to mood swing or depress!!! T_T
