Hmm.. my heart feels pain when I read the testi of her and her fren... what intro gals to eachother blah blah... *sigh* it hurts me more to see her status as single... and looking for relationship...
Do I actually meant anything...? Or I am the one who selfishly think that she is still my girl... damn.. my mood sux... I just dont wana lose her...
What the hell should I do!!!! #@%#$^#@^&%$&$#@$#^%
Anyway, school sux too... damn fucking stress and pack like shit... -_- I hate that... @$#%#^%$&^$#@ Everything is so rigid and no change, alot more stupid lectures... And, people comparing their GPA... they got like 2.9 or more den 3 lor.. what I got? 2.42... shitty... They talking about how many As they got... me leh? Never fail is consider a blessing le...
So stress... forum screwed up and the person say if they help us configuration and blah will be around 500 bucks... knn... money sucker...
Ymk forum oso screwed up as, I seeing people like trying to take control and be the in charge lor.. and our chairwoman still blur blur, anything also fine...
I am quite tired at YMK side... might even thought of leaving... or be a silent member who dont post anymore... Tired of the demanding attitude they give me on doing the banners, and never appreciate them at all, or at least my effort. It's not like I fucking owe you all those banners, all out of my own effort... People there only look at my negative sides. They hardly even mention the name Lollipop when they talk about things...
Shitty lor, from the start I should have took charge and do the forum instead of let the other person do. I really fucking angry that I actually thought she know forum codings.. but actually she just apply a FREE FUCKING FORUM BOARD. KNN lah... liddat I also know, even primary school kid oso know lor...
FUCK FUCK FUCK! I DONT WANA BE GOOD MAN LE LAH! I AM SO SICK OF IT! TIRED OF SCHOOL AND NOBODY GIVES ME SUPPORT!!! SO WHAT THE FUCK! I MIGHT AS WELL JUMP OFF FROM NAFA BUILDING... though not high enough, highest oni 7th floor... =/
DIED le better, parents no need fork out so much fucking money to pay for my school fees... dont need care about computer spoilt, my physical health, my mind...
I dont know if I am too tired physically as too long never go school, or tired mentally as been doing website and having lectures. First week nia, I keep dozing off... This isnt like me... I hardly doze off in NAFA... -.-;;;
I wan to be exhibition designer... I want to be earning big cash... I wana be able to provide her a home with stable income... But, if she is not even there to support me, how can I walk on...
I feel so lonely... been clinging onto mich alot nowdays as I dont really talk much to other people.. meng so busy... jiahui I didnt go find her... den my sch got no close fren at all whom I can talk freely... My family as long as they dont fucking quarrel all day long I already very kam sia... Sigh... guess I should go visit a counsellor or a what therapy thingy... -.-;;;
My fucking mood just screwed along with her actions... I WANA YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
