Mood swing again... =/ Everything was alright until I login friendster. She changed alot.. far from the one I used to be so close with... *sigh* We really like that over mah..? If it was so easily to be able to forget the past memories, why we create it... To you, you might feel that those memories are enough le... but what about me..? How could you be so cruel to me... We are indeed drifting further and further...
Sad.. school load getting heavy again, and it is coming to the end of my year 1. Everything is getting more and more hard... I wonder will there be a change of class. And I miss my teacher, Patrick. He is really interesting teacher, and always lend me VCD.. lol... kinda brighten up my days in school when having his lesson.
Now... I no longer looking forward to anything le... just go school, go home, do home work, ro abit... yea.. after so many years, I still ro-ing... Memories... of Iris, Cosy home of Odin.... Everything indeed just a dream, just like our guild name, Dreamers... We are nothing but a bunch of dreamers having dreams together. And these are dreams that can never become real.
Ever thought of being a nun? Lol... I thought of it, but, I don't eat veggie! LOL
Am I the only one left behind..? Everyone seems to be procceding fast.. I am still a Year 1 student. Don't even know if I could complete my studies. Everyone is so muuch more pro then me. My drawings looks like kids drawing... *sigh*
What is my aim? What kinda life do I wana live? Where is my motivation..? My motivations probably are fearing of teachers scold me if I don't do my work... lol...
Anyway, today watch this horror movie lend by Patrick. I uploaded it to my Zen Vision, and my friends went to crowd around the "mini TV". XD At first I was so scared to watch de, but with them watching with me, it seems more interesting, as we could talk about the storyline. Then went to Bras Basha to get my marker refill, and saw a book fair going on. Bought 2 books on Anita Mui and a chinese pictorial book, by some online flash maker. Wanted to buy some I.T. books, but kinda out of cash. Probably going to buy it on Friday...
Feel like going to seaside...haha... Always feel like doing it... but nobody pei me... And I don't know who I want to pei me. Used to have her around. But now no more. Used to plan on going to sentosa with her. But now no more. Used to plan going to Japan with er. But now no more...
*Sigh* I go bathe and eat and go do hmwk le bah... Still feeling sick nowdays.. maybe I dying... lol.. Die bah, The world also no change without me. Today have to draw floor plan again, haiz.. like it quite much, but yet is a very stress thing. =_=
*Hugz my vanishing DearDear...*
