Saturday, July 26, 2008
I was abit shocked to read from someone's blog that she knew Dear's grandfather passed away... like huh? Perhaps dear told her... I cant imagine myself going around to sms ppl about this... but yea... maybe this is the tradition or wat so ever...
She knows that dear is close with her grandfather, but I know nuts.
Dear insisted she told me about her grandpa, but I swear I never know anything b4...if I know she still got a grandpa around back then, I would have ask how come grandma will gona stay with them but grandpa no need...
Then again, I am always out of the picture when things happened I guess? X_x;;;;
Her abscence made me felt that maybe I wasnt that important to anyone at all... I realise I got zero life when she is not around... and yea, especially when Ms Ong ask me what I do besides work, study, dating... X_x;; I got zero life.
I really enjoy chatting with Ms Ong... she's just so good at putting words and leading you about your life and such in a very patient and positive matter...
And.. Hell yea... SHE GOT A BOYFRIEND!!!
Like.... WOW?!!!! :X
I tot she will forever be single as she is such a free and easy kinda person...
Funny is that, when I reconfirm again with her is it bf, or male fren...then she went "I still stay at my home with my mom lah, we not until marriage that stage..." I like... huh? I just asking izzit bf anot...why u explain so much... tsk tsk... heart got ghost huh.... tsk tsk... :P
Anyway, I really enjoy sessions with her... :D She often made me think more about future and such... and yea, I already think alot liao, she still push me to think more... XD~~~
And, she is really sweet....
She asked about my family, individually... Michelle, WeiYi... JiaHui.... But, no EDDIE POON.... :P
And... yea...why am I the only one that grows sideways.... =__________=;;;
Hope to meet up with her soon next time..which could be in a years' time? ROFL~~ :P
Yea, I love my job although it's tough.... nono...actually, I love the ppl there....they are all quite sweet.... :D~
Mich, change job lah! =X
This weekend is for me to rot at home....so long nv rot at home le... I will just hide in my cocoon with my toys and cover up blanket warmly... XD
Yea... I miss you... but, I cant be asking for anything now as you cant give me anything now at such times... :(
I know I am not sensitive enough... perhaps, I cant feel much for someone who wasnt mentioned b4/much... Not that I am heartless... coz I wasnt given chance to know this person even verbally... :(
I got alot photos to post... but when got time... X_X;;;;
*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/26/2008 01:09:00 AM
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Sunday, July 20, 2008
:(
I know, I can never get myself an event which everyone i know comes along and gimme their blessing...
I am simply unwanted...
Why gimme heart and made me live since I am so un-needed?
*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/20/2008 12:59:00 AM
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Saturday, July 19, 2008
3 weeks of work...
- shag
- tired
- stress
- heavy load
- morning rush
- sleepy head whole day
- fun
- lotsa food
- lotsa laughters
- gong gong is there
- air con
have to tahan another 3~4month.... X_X;;; ganbatte... >_<;;;
I so hate my mom fo keep emphasising to ask me dun "luan luan lai" which is anyhow do or watsoever... it's refering to dear and me. -____-;;; kns....
I duno... just so sick of them... I wish I am much older with stable finacial... even not able to buy a house... i rather rent a room or wat.... -____-;;;
I am really so pissed by this house and the controller of this house... stop poking your nose into every bits of my life! Damn you, everyone in this hse is single bcoz of u fucking idiots that keep restricting our social life!!!!!!
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*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/19/2008 12:52:00 AM
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
也许我已经把你和她的事看开了一点。。。
可是，你居然要求和她打麻将。
你好像忘了答应过我，"除了公事，我不会再和她出去了。"的这个承诺。
看来，我的宽容让你变得放肆，那既然我怎么做，你都不愿意放下她，常常为了她的邀请而懊恼，不会为我而直接拒绝的话，哪我就只好对你报着心如止水的方式来看待。
我对你的宽容与溺爱让我常常受尽了心理上的折磨，我好累了。。。每次都担心你会背着我和她联系与见面，担心你的背叛。
你从来都只会说有想过叫我一起去，往往只有在我不爽时，提出要跟去时，你才勉为其难地提出。要时一开始，你说你已经问过/提出了才问我的话，我就不会那么生气了。当你问可不可以去时，你有想过我是如何想的吗?我不是不让你见她，而是觉得你们排挤了我。你跟我之间没有共同的朋友与圈子已经够让我感到寂寞了，还要再掩饰我们的关系，更是让我觉得孤立。
我为了你，牺牲了这么多，着想了那么多，甚至降低了身份去你公司上班，为的是能多见到你，还不够吗?
如果我做了哪么多还不值得你为我的立场着想的话，那我也只好认了。
或许，这就是我的命。
*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/12/2008 12:51:00 AM
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Tuesday, July 08, 2008
I am so lost... nothing ever seems right...
Family pressure
Work Pressure
Dear's Pressure
My own high expectation and pressure...
I am tearing apart...
So tired... just feel like saying
"FUCK CARE LAH"
:/
I hate everything. I am so back into my dark era.... just let me fall... :(
I am back to being a Lifeless Doll...
*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/08/2008 04:25:00 PM
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Monday, July 07, 2008
X_X;;;
Such a no life week... the most no life week in my life... XD No internet for a freaky week.... X_X;;;
I am so deprived for internet... kns... and made me ended up surfing at such hour... and yea... I wana blog so much... >_<;;;
I somehow like my work in Pem... but... abit stress lah... have to cover people.. and she like any moment will pop out her baby... >_<;;; *shiverS*
Alot things to say... as usual... no time to say... >_<;;;
Took my first step in trying to befriend with HER.... :D So far so good? XD
And...kns. parents suspecting my r/s with dear... >_< It really bothers me... :( It was all bcoz we were so engross in watching TV in living room tgt the other day and we put our hands on eachother's lap...and dad walked out from the bedroom and saw!!! >_<;;; CUA SAI~~~~ >_< Freak out sia... and.. I guess.. perhaps, that day when they return home... we were both in the bedroom? X_x;;; Dear was tired...so let her resting in my room... >_<;;;
Kns..... 6.30am wakey everyday is so torturing.... I dont even bother to be on time when I schooling in NAFA... XDD~~~ I missing my NAFA life badly... :( I miss my any-time-can-go-out-snacking-slot the most~~!! XD~~~ But, I am glad that office got a few nice soul... including my direct "upstair".... :D~~ and wee~ I got lotsa benefits where previous part-timers dont!! XD and~~ Bowling next fri with the company~~ Weee~~~ *eyes shine for free bowl*
I am so in love with the Giroro and Tamama dear bought back from Bangkok... :D~~~ *mwackz* They are from Geroro Gunso... a lame and funny anime... well.. lame always followed by fun... XD
Tired.... so freaky bodyaches... >_<
I miss my aimless life... yes... I am bullshitting.... when I am free from NAFA... I miss my stressful life... when I am working.. I miss my aimless and carefree life... woahaha? XD~~~
Counting down to my bday... :D~
Oh yea.. glad that I am getting back in touch with Maria... :D~~ Next must get back my connection with my deyi pals... :D and who else? I wana catch up with a few old frens... NTU jie jie and MS LIGAYA ONG SWEE NEO. =X Where u sia... XD~~~
I kinda enjoy my tiring life... :D Just...
NO GAME.
NO INTERNET.
NO NAPS.
NO FOOD AS AND WHEN I LIKE.
:(
But, I love bring plushies to work~~ :D~~
*attempts to smuggle giroro into office...*
Oh yea, till now, I duno what will happened when the gal i am covering leaves... X_x;;; like seating...accounts... and watsoever... and company havent gimme my contract... and I got no access card... -__________-;;;;
Everyday just enter purchase order... filing... check stock... X_x;;;;;
Anyone wana buy fasteners? Screws? Nuts? XD~~ Yea, I will be fasten to the company and get screwed and turn nuts... =X
Wee~ I made a sentence outta it~~!! XD
I wana sort out my photos already lah.. mountains of photos waiting to be posted.
Toy fair
Cosplay
Gundam Models
Our lovey dovey photos... XDDDD
*Sleeping time!!!! XD*
*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/07/2008 02:26:00 AM
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