Guess, I still lost to stress and FYP...


- Vanished -

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/27/2008 08:23:00 PM

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Thanks, my dearest Lao Gong...for spending your whole nice weekend with me...sacrifising you beauty sleep and such... haha...

Had the most pampered and demanding weekend...being an unreasonable girl over the weekend...sinking into your arms full of love and more love... =D

I love you...very much... and also for the effort you put in to cheer me up and staying by my side while I try to fight my war with NAFA...

Mwackz...

I know, there will be no one else as perfect as you...


Love you...and....damn, you dozed off after pom pom! XDDD~~ *bites lao gong*



Wo Ai Ni...


And.... _|_ back to my study mood, last week le...before all the submissions are here knocking at my face... X_X

Ganbatte! =D

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/25/2008 12:14:00 AM

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It's so hard to struggle with what is on my mind... my reluctant of going to school... I duno why juz so dislike sch at this point... perhaps lecturers had hurt me too much...but oh well, they have to rights to critic u... :(


Got a feeling of I am just doing a piece of junkie project... dont like... I am still quite lost with everything and anything... there are so much things I dont like in design field... like getting detailing and technical drawings....they are always the pain in the ass for me.... =(


What to do... haiz... I felt so dead even though dear is there for me...and trying to motivate me... :(


Everytime when I work into the nite, I felt like I am gona dying from the feeling of emptiness and loneliness... perhaps I rely too much on dear... perhaps I am a weakling... I duno... why everything just seems so tough for me...


I think I am getting all my depression back... I need a shrink... =(


haiz...*hides up and cry*


I hate school... I hate everything... I hate my life...

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/22/2008 12:50:00 AM

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Dont like.... *burns down nafa*


Probably, my creative flow of inspiration had used up...probably, I dont have them at all...everything was just luck in these 3 years...


I again so lost on the path towards designer...



Am I able to handle this title?

Am I able to come up with more creativity?

Am I able to handle all the stress and meanie critics?




I duno....probably not...

No confidence... no nothing...



Felt so lost...and junk.. X_x;;;


Lucky still got lao gong by my side... =D


Mwackz... thanks, my dear lao gong... Love u!

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/18/2008 11:39:00 AM

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Finally, CNY over (consider bah), Jap test over, sick almost over.

Waiting Vday over, and I should....


CONCENTRATE ON STUDY. -____-;;;

*smackz self*


Really must do well and jia you... if not lao gong will think is her fault for pampering me too much...and giving in and let me nua too much... >_<;;;


So, I think I should write a rough schedule these weeks to keep myself on the track.


Anyway, had a very fun CNY somehow...coz I played with Lao Gong, vin, kor...meng (his bf like bo chap lor... abit disappointed with his attitude) Meng. u shld have confiscated ur DS when u all at my hse...woahahaha...


Played firecrackers, mahjong, Wii... ROFL all the way...haha... After they left was about 2+am le... then I suggest to Lao Gong we take dad's car and go watch midnite movie...and so, we went to orchard cathay to watch CJ7! It's sooooooooooooo the cute!! XDDD LAme, but I only love CJ7... such a cutie little fellow... =D


Somehow, this CNY, wasnt a good one for me...why?


SICK LAH. STUPID #@$@$%$#^!@$%$& STOMACH FLU. (I guess...)



Was lao sai-ing all the way which was stated at my previous few entries. X_X;;; den it came back yesterday where I dress up nicely to return back to sch. It occured at home, but I tried to go sch...and it worsen on train. In the end, my parents came to pick me up and go to doc.... X_X;;; alot ppl at clinic sia...all try to geng MC rite? hahahaa....


The pain continue to the 2nd day..which is today... MC again...but at nite I went to take my Jap test... X_X;;; Kinda...ok ok lah... Shld be able to pass, but duno a good pass or a low pass nia...haha... =P


Lao Gong came to pick my up..and kapo a ring file which I needed to do my filing for project records...X_X;;; =D Then.. she bring me go makan...den sent me home... =D Initially she wanted to surprise me..but I asked for it...and she pout...and say.... "Eee, how come you guess my tots" something liddat...haha.. silly darling... mwackz!


No surprise for vday..nothing... no mood. no time. no energy. T_T


*sigh*



My first Vday with my dearest Lao Gong... :(



*sulks*



Anyway, yea, wana say sorry to mich...for trying to force u to come my hse... I wanted u to socialise, but guess I did at the wrong timing... :( Felt so bad after I read ur blog... didnt know what u were going thru as I invited u den only I saw the blog entry... paiseh.. ><;;;



Wednesday - Sketch as much as possible and talk to lects.
Thursday - Try to research about interesting details at NLB with Lao Gong den go for Vday celebration... =D
Friday - Do alot sketches, at nite go Lao Gong's hse bai nian.
Saturday - Chingay!! Afternn must try to do some work.... probably going meng's hse to mahjong...
Sunday - Stay at home to do work, no nua, no lao gong, no guai, lao gong no sayang.


>_< Must stop glue to Lao Gong for a short period...must do work lah...Lao Gong oso have to do work... try to do more work when she needs to attend meetings, OT...and such.... ok? Be a good gal.... =D

Lao Gong must sayang me o... *watery puppy eyes*

XD

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/13/2008 02:01:00 AM

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Probably it's menses...all the hormones screwed up...

I felt so loney over CNY... didnt enjoy it at all...

Probably I felt sick...and felt lonely...


Probably I sux at managing social... not much people respond to my invitation...or probably too last min...or... I am just forcing people... whatever it is...everytime after I tried to organise a gathering, it will only lead to the same old thought;

What's the fuck of organizing gathering when others dont even appreciate nor attend.


I know...some has own difficulties and problems.... I tried to understand...but the selfish me who wants everything like a princess flared. =P



Afterall... I am simply sick of organising gatherings when all the friend you have are so inactive and buay on... lucky got kor that sounds more active and even say wana mahjong overnite... =D It boast me up.... =D



It felt lonely when you are busy with handling family stuffs and spending time with them...I know, I am just selfish...for wanting to meet u so much... :( I was so weak in the past few days...and wanted you to sayang me... But guess, I somehow survived thru despite I thought I was gona die last nite, being so weak and jelly after the final lao sai... =(


It's so scary...CNY is kinda considered over officially... If nt tmr is weekend... we already have to report to work and school le... X_x;;;



I kinda miss those days where I think I am kinda astray... where I hang out with my RO mates... drinking, mahjonging, and watsoever....the craziest days in my life... besides that, my life been awis so calm and smooth... I miss those crazy days...which will never return... I could never hang out with such big bunch and drink, and gamble, and walk down late nite streets.... laugh like mad gal....watsoever....


It's good to have some notti frens... =D




And worse, I dont even have common friend with u whom we could hang out together...being just we 2 is nice...but, occassionally having a bunch is fun too... but...alright, I am just asking too much...

Perhaps, what I should do for this new year is to stop wanting, just sit there and receive whatever comes to me... and giving whatever I can to others... or probably only to u...




I wanted to explore He Pan with you...but you end up heading down with your family first... >< was kinda sad when I know that... coz I am not the first one that u go there with... I just wana be the first one to do things with u...but I know I cant...coz you have already done so much with others...and this mountain tortise me couldnt bring u to anywhere amusing or what...





Felt so uber depress on this stupid CNY.... haiz...



*sits in a corner and draws circle*

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/08/2008 11:33:00 PM

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went to lao again... =____=

Felt so unwell now...wana puke oso... >< *cries*

I better slp...

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/08/2008 02:38:00 AM

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so...fucking...sick.

Lao sai till like nobody's business...and having all the stomach aches.... kns... sit in toilet most of the time... X_X

Best part? currently is CNY lor... cant eat much...cant drink too cold stuffs... if not, I will suffer the pain and such.. *cries*


And best of all? I cant see Lao Gong until Chu 3 (3rd day of CNY)... T_T dun like lah... I wan her sayang... :( I wana see lao gong... I wana nua in her arms...

It all happened on the monday..as I was on my way to sch...had a sharp pain in stomach....and so I went to see doc and got some med...Tuesday went to sch..though it hurts...coz I wana watch that movie with Lao Gong after school... Perpolis? or smthg liddat...got it from Fridae... free tix... =D

It kinda worsen on the eve and today.... really fuck pain...and I pass motion like duno wat... erm...it feels like...lotsa urine....gush out from ur asshole... rofl!


Pain... pain pain!!!!!! PAIN LAH! It's been following me 24 hrs non stop...keep making me feel like visiting the loo... or fart that stinks like some dead corpse... -_-;;; yea.. I am being disgusting...rofl! Who cares! XD I bet not much ppl reading anyway... blehhhhhhhh! XDDDD


So the miss Lao gong... :(

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/08/2008 01:49:00 AM

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*cries* *wails*

Dont like dont like!!! T_________T

Dont want stomach pain pain... dont want!!


I want school school.. I want full attendance...


Dont want lao sai... T_T

I want Lao Gong.... XDDDDD






*cuddles into lao gong's arms and refuse to move*

*Fallen AngeL*
x 2/04/2008 12:12:00 PM

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