Ewwww... why do weekends end so fast!! T_____T

Today have to go school early.. yikes.. hate waking up so early to go school.. T_T

However, I am able to drag myself to school as it is.. his.. LESSON~!! XDD~~ *throws confetti*

I really enjoys his lesson man... his lecture keeps me awake... his nonstop long winded nagging never kills my mood. XD~

Today he is late again lor...

I reached around 8.55am or earlier? (lesson at 9am) Met Vin and Jes when going to cross the road to kopitiam that side... Was thinking that 2 bamboo looks familiar... XDDD~~


And... F. Again no aircon. WTF. Like I neber pay school fees lor... =__=;;; Again, I sit sit outside to air myself while wiping my sweat... lol... it's like so.. freaking.. hot. the windows are tightly shut and locked! nb... wana kill us izzit. -____- really bth... so quite alot ppl sit outside of the classroom to air themselves... lol


But ard 9.10 liddat, aircons are on... =_=;; and about 5 mins later, he appeared.. tsk tsk... overslpt izzit. baka. XD I started smiling to myself like siao and blush for F when I see him... ahhhhhhhhhh...

Blah blah blah... as usual.. his instructions and more and more elaborations... and more and more instructions... for the morning... XD He wanted us to critic on the Korea Exhibition which are being set up by students who went korea... ._.;;;

Spent some time writing.. maciam doing a suprise compo test... rofl.... He say always ask us stand up and say.. awis beri little from us.. but when ask us write, we write like compo lor.. XDD trying to be funny huh, boy. lolx... boy. XDD


When he collected my piece, he smiled at me and say thank you.. ahhhhhhh *dies* *melts* lol.... I am hentai eechi fan girl. XD

Initially he say randomly pick a few to read.. and mana zhai.. he end up reading every single piece. @@;;; and so paiseh, my handwritting sux and very small.. he cant really read.. and misinterpret some parts... not very serious mistake.. and it is by anonymous.. so.. dun care! He spend so much in reading out.. and... end up we hardly have much time for 1 to 1 critic. Oh yea, when we writing compo, his hp rang lor.. the first time I heard his hp ringtone... something very from the fone one lah... not like mine... "lovin you... " awis cut nice mp3s in... XDDD He spoke a mixture of ang mo and deng lang (mandarin) in his conversation.. XD

Then, soon when he come over.. I kinda.. high and loss of words... too long nv 1 to 1 critic.. so I end up call jes to say.. but in the end oso I the one keep tokin and toking... once I tok, I cant stop. rofl.

Initially he say my idea too strong say might not fit.. blah blah blah.. but, I got this very argue character... and end up ting ting ting, I won! He kinda accepted the idea after I try to bull here and bull there... lol... He did gib some very nice ideas oso... I think we are the last grp he see, the others havent see him yet and was told to see him later...


Soon ish that female teacher's slot... and she started seeing us 1 to 1... den after quite some time.. XXXXX came in and told her that she can actually let the rest go makan first and take turns to see her later.. then she like.. oh, ok, class, go for your break and come back to see me later. -__-;;; wah.. lao..... say...earlier mah. =___=


CQ smsed me to go find them makan.. so I went and find them... jes took abit long in toilet... if not I wouldnt miss something. what is it?

CQ called me back right after I tell her I am going.. why?



SHE SAW HIM AT THE PLACE WHERE THEY MAKANING!!! T___T


I was like O_O and I keep rush jes to be fast... lol.. but suay lah...

When I reached there, he is no where to be found. :( Not my luck man. Awis never bump into him... so suay... so no yuan fen.


After makaning, go back let that female cher shoot... bang bang bang... *dead* she got alot questions lor.. and keep on poking us with things we haben think of and cant answer... last time I tot only XXXXX ish so harsh and direct.. mana zhai, this one ish worse. -___-


After that... we can go home liao... then I... smsed... him... where ish him.. wana see him.. then he replied....

Then I go to staff room to find him... called him on the internal phone... XD

Then we discuss abit on the project... (paiseh to jessie... bang se u and go find him alone...) He showed me to this meeting room in the staffroom... (got door one lor)... and he beri gentlemanly leaving the door open... maybe scare I eat him up people misunderstood as gu nan gua nv (solo man, solo woman, rofl.) in the room... XDDD


He gave me quite some ideas and go into the proj deeper and more aspects with me... I like such private consultation.. seems like he will gib more tips and ideas... XDD~~

After some round of serious discussion...

While keeping my stuffs.. I said "so..."

and he chap in and ask "so saturday how? meet where?"

den I =_=;;; and reply, I was about just to tell you about saturday... -___-;;


baka. so anxious ar. XD~



Then I tell him most probably ish 6pm at central, den he ask central? which central? then I say the new shopping at clark quey... den he ooo.... then he say 6 ar.. shld be ok.. i try to be there.. blah blah...

And.. duno wat got into me... and I got so daring and
I asked... "how long will u stay ar?"
he replied "until 8+ I think..."
then I say "aww...so early?"
he asked "why? any plans?"
me "yea, tot wana go chilling out or smthg, go for a drink or wat..."
him "aiyo... no lah.. I am too old for clubbing..."
(heartache, where got...old... >_< *sayang*)
me "no lah! I dun mean club, just sit down have a drink or wat and chat..."
him "huh? you all can drink meh? underage wor..."
me "aiyo... we already 20 liao leh!"
him "20 not underage to drink meh?"
me "no... 18!"
him "I tot 21..."

dotz dotz... lol...

Then he ask where to meet...exact location...

me "duno leh, I never been there before, anyway we will be going this jap resturant called Waraku."
him "ohh... wahh. that one very packed one leh...'
me "izzit? I neber went b4..."
him "there are a couple of japanese resturant, not sure if the one you say is the packed one..."
me "oh.. duno leh..."
him "well, nevermind, you sms me to confirm again lah...."
me "orh... I think I will make a reservation..."
him "ok..."
me "ok... I go first, bye bye..."
him "bye.."

Walks to door... ta blek, go stun...

me "ah btw...."
him "huh?"
me "the sketches can I draw on A4 and compile into a file instead of using A3 sketchbook?"
him thinks awhile "hmm, a I mentioned, I am ok with whatever way you do you sketches, be in on A4 or A3.. I think I mentioned before last week.."
me "got meh.. I dun think so.."
him "ahh.. nevermind, it is ok to use a file instead..'
me "ohh.. okok.. bye bye! ^^"
him "byebye"

and.. yesh... I am siao. I remember every single dialogue we had... (except those dialogue on the project...)

after that, I meet CQ... sorry benny, awis snatch CQ from u...

We went quite a few place to shop for my dress... bugis, bugis street, this fashion bugis, this fashion PS... in the end oso go back to this fashion bugis to grab the dress I tried the other day...

the..super...low..cut on...front.. and back.. one.... @@


CQ ask me dun wear bra!! @_@;;; I duno.. I think of dun wear oso.. coz really beri hard to wear as will see the bra no matter ish wat kinda... @_@;;; I duno.. I see see first... lol... I kinda scare my sis scold.. I ask CQ to help me wash... rofl...

Bought a shawl to go with it too and a bag... XD CQ too bought a dress and shawl... we gona act so lady on sat.. rofl...

Kk.. now.. after all the fanfic.. I am gona do my work...

Btw.. these isnt fanfic.. they are real stories! XDDDD

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/31/2007 12:24:00 AM

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Ah...

I think I hurt myself yesterday when helping CQ dismantle the booth.. some pins are used to secure the booth when we glued and we are plain lazy to take out.

and... I got 2 scratches on the back of my right hand...

Was wondering wat's so pain and itchy on my hand yesterday when buying cosmetics... today think back, alamak, stupid pins.


Went to SHE concert with my today... so lucky that I won the tix... we went ard 5+.. and reached ard 6... and.. nb.. SO MANY PPL LOR. =_______=;;;

We have to go round and rounds b4 we could get in as there are too much people...
City Harvest is holding a event next door thus the amount of people is doubled.. and they are got a huge bunch.. @_@

Watch the concert totally off the screen.. why? The idiots audience are standing on the chair. like wtf? super kiasu singaporean. -___-

I dun wana stand on the chair so sit and watch screen lor...


Was pretty disappointed as the concert is pretty short... like 1 hour? =_=;; I wonder those spend over nite to queue ones will #@$#%#%#%^ anot... rofl...

Sis and I had pasta mania @ tampines den go home liao.. XD


I think I shld sleep now so can spend my whole sunday to do my project... @_@

my gosh... next week.... coming liao!! So...unbelievable. XD~

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/29/2007 03:03:00 AM

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Oh yea,

Think Monday I will head down to Waraku to make a reservation... haha...

I hope they do accept reservations? @_@;;;

I wana go there see see environment oso... see where got nice view... XDD~~

>////<

Sia la....

So high liao...

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/28/2007 04:03:00 AM

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Ahh.. finally. Friday nite! Or rather Sat Morning! XDD~~

Anyway, story of Wednesday Field trip.


Morning around 11.10am, I reached NAFA foyer... nb.. nobody! =_=;; Went jalan abit makan my onigiri.. still no body... continue jalan... then comes the rest slowly bit by bit...

Waiting anxiously when I heard the news that he will join us together to get there.:D

Soon.. he appeared, with.. lotsa... bright...green... UMBRELLAS.... =_=;; Yea.. he is thoughtful... XDD But... bright green. lol.. probably provided by nafa or wat.. and maybe he has to go rent them or smthg... kan dou desu. XDD


Demo. Atashi got umbrella.. so ney take...

After that, we head out the bus stop for bus 65... XDD~~

I purposely try to stand near him while waiting for bus. Yea, I am stalker. XDDD I smile at him for our first eye contact, he smiled back to... =D

Then after awhile.. bus came... we got up.. I so baka, so fast got up.. end up sitting so far from him coz he is the last to get on. :(

Wanted to go pei him coz he alone infront lor.. but too ming xian and paiseh lor.. and unnatural. XDDD

Bo bian.. crap with whoever around me while thinking about him...


Soon we alight around river valley there to go to this furniture showroom...

Inside brief here brief there.. took pic.. asked some qns... of coz, I shot my qns at him though I was told to feel free to ask the in charge. =XXX~~


Anyway, after that we left like after an hour in the showroom. On the way back, I smart liao leh... I purposely got up last few, and took a seat infront. Got 3 empty seats. So, this top student whom I think wana accompany XXXXX or smthg came to sit bside me, and XXXXX sat 1 seat away from me. :'(


Bakabakashi.

Well, I took out some sweets to offer them. I know XXXXX will take.. coz so far he never reject any food offers.. XDD~~ Kawaii ne... Then I listen to their conversation.. blah blah...

Soon, this particular stop got a few senior citizens board on, and we 3 stood up to offer our seats. We lean against the side which old card/ticket machine is located. Then this time I smarter again, I act the place I stand not comfy and stand next to him...

They were chatting and chatting.. then got a stop point. I quickly chap in something.. told him abt my freelance... then he gib me tips... ask me dun take if the client is unreasonable or didnt provide enough info.. will spoil reputation and such. *^^*

Got this aunty board on and ask XXXXX to take the empty seat lor. OEI. My darling not that OLD ok. T_T

I know the way he handles his umbrella looks ah pek.. but he is no ok! =X

Then got this part he turn and back face me... and guess wat... I tried to lean foward to smell him! omg. Hentai, eechi, pervert, siao, crazy.. watever u want just scold me. Coz so far he is the only one I like without scent. He is a scentless person... XDDD I am trying to detect scents on him.. but sad... like got like no... so... mission failed!! T_T

I wanted to pretend I lose balance lor.. but so fake, so I strike that plan out. XD

Soon, we arrived and alight at Peace Center... from there to school abit far.. so we walk together...

At first I walking behind him.. and so duno wat to do... after that, I pluck up my courage and go up to him and ask "So, next Xday how?" He replied "Ah, I forgot to check my diary, so sorry.." then I gave this aiyo... type of sound... but I 4got wat sound I actually made. XD

Then he ask got who go and such... ask where and time... then I say duno yet, den ask him to suggest, he shrugs at me... so cute! =X

Well... that's all for Wednesday...

Let's talk abt Friday? aka today? lolx...

(Thurs no hab him lah... I went to pick up my lens and specs from the butch. XD I like her service and her look... but I dun like her skill. =X)

Friday...

Nothing really much.. was kinda alone today... hope to bump into him.. but no luck at all.... Chat with Ron quite abit... O_o;;; weird.. lol.. coz he dun really chat so much with me... keke..

Dim Sum uncle say my hair nice wor.. blue blue.. special... XD~

Met CQ for lunch as her lesson is much later.. and we went this fashion. Tried a few dress... XDDD Got this uber low cut at the front dress seems to fit me pretty well... but bad that it is sleeveless.. showing my fat arms. Still wondering wana buy it anot till now... haiz... I wanted this not bcoz of the cut lah.. it's bcoz it's the only fits me.. the rest got stucked at "CHEST" area... >///< Too fat. :(


And I headed to Redman to see things after walking to school with CQ and Ben.. we went seperate ways.. and.. mana zhai. I missed this chance.

They met him!!! They quickly ask him can make it anot... (coz I asked b4, ask again very obvious or wat... so I beg CQ to do it, just do it! Nike!) Then he replied shld be can... then say wat he check our list still cant figure out ish whose bday... (I think coz my bday is being recorded flipped over in school database, coz I just realise in the morning lesson and have it changed.) Then he ask is it CQ's, or Ben's.. both say nope. Baka baka! Silly boy! So obvious liao lor. =___=;; I am stunned that he actually check up on our birthdates. haha... omg.... *blush* He is really very thoughtful...considerate... watever.... *mwackz*


I went comp lab to reasearch until beri late... like 5.30pm.. CQ smsed me to go pei her to dismantle her korea trip exhibition coz the other 2 got smthg on... so I went to help her coz she lonely mah.. When I reached there, I drop my bag at her and went toilet.. and suay lor.. when I come our... CQ TELL ME HE JUST WALKED PAST!.... T_T DAMN... Really suay and no luck today... :(

After that ard 6 I go and meet my sis for shopping...



WAH LAO. THE BEST OF THE DAY. 400 bucks worth of Lancome costmetics. =___=
I only say the eyeliner nice.. den we go there and kena waves of promotion/services.. @@;;; Nice, I can make up now.. XD~

Bought 2 pairs of shoes too.. lol.. so rare can find my size and having sales so.. of coz.. GRAB! XD~ 1 for casual (NB, today wear slippers to sch, security come ask me to dun wear this and wear things like more class de... =_=) and 1 is to match my dress? XD

Went mise to buy some photos too... Micky!~ Mostly... or rather... all. XD and 1 Ayu chan.. XDD


I know.. long entry... I needa slp now..... 4am?! WTF.

Oh yea, thanks to mich for all the brainstorming and help and ideas and time.. XD Watever... lolx...



I know I beri de in love with XXXXX liao.. kinda hard to unroot him from my heart liao... hahahaha...

Shit. I am turning str8? But not exactly, coz I never hiu other guys... XD I only eyes for XXXXX... if not him, I will still look at girls... XDD~


Nitez!!

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/28/2007 03:21:00 AM

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I wana blog about my field trip with XXXXX...

Demo saa...

I am too busy and tired to type long compo.. XD~~

Will do it like tmr nite or what...


Hope I dont forget the details... I know I wont... XDDD~~



Is there anyway to catogorise your blog entries?

Like some ppl do it like, Friends, Food, Family, Leisure, Movies... and so on...

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/27/2007 12:20:00 AM

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Went to view friend's LJ and saw....

LiveJournal is currently unavailable due to a power outage at our datacenter. We'll be back in action as soon as possible.

For more information: http://status.sixapart.com

Thank you for your patience.


XD~~
Bo Liao.. I shld be getting ready to go school... @_@

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/25/2007 09:39:00 AM

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nothing much today..

Never see tio him...

Anyway, someone officially wana break something with me...

I am uber sad... but I duno what to do...

It feels like someone wana breakup with me... lol...


Anyway, saw HOD many times today.. and together with my communication teacher... both were talking about my hair colour.. XDDD;;

Comm teacher actually asked me if I do cosplay... lol.. bingo? Somehow lah... coz I retired.. XD


I just like different weird colours on my head... another way of getting attention bah....


I am attention seeker... XD



Will he reply me tmr on whether he will attend next Xday?... XD;;

I am worried about the answer... worried until wana puke... @_@

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/25/2007 01:55:00 AM

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wakakaka.......2am.


I am still awake...

Was back tracking my blog...

Realise I basically only mention about myself... and blaming others... writting my love ones...

Maybe I really that cold blooded or wat that I dont bother abt others.


But I swear, I read you guys' blogs everyday if I online.

I am not those keep saying I care about u... I read about u and as long as u are fine, I will keep quiet... when u are in need, I will try to care more abt u... but school works are killing all the time.

I read up my development of my craze for XXXXX... so lame. lol... i mean it wasnt fully on my blog... it's on my mind... as i read my blog it refreshes it... XD


*sigh*


I am worried abt everything.


Please attend to make me feel better about life...

There is really nothing to look forward without u... lol....


I am tired too... but who cares?

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/24/2007 01:54:00 AM

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Ah...

Oh happy day... oh happy day....

XD~~ I must be siaoz... I know... dont need tell me that. XDDD

Today got his lesson... I really can listen hours to him without being bored by him. =X


He on and off got come chat with me.. like how's holiday and how's the project I did previously where I smsed him for pricing... XD Omg... he actually remembers it. XDDD

*doki doki*


Was kinda happy that school reopens.. though I could feel waves of stress come splashing right into my face. =_= I wonder if I could meet all deadlines... *sigh*

Hwaiting!!!

Was glad to see the same old gang hanging out again.. so long nv hang out as the usual big gang... =D *huggles all*

Today after makan lunch, we went back to lvl 4 to do smthg... and a client called me for a project... deadline by thurs... hope can rush out for him. After they are done with their stuffs... we going out to changi.. but b4 we set off.. I say I think I shld go do that "something" aka mission impossible... XDDD

As I still ai mai ai mai and walk towards staffroom.....


*POOF*

Fairy godmother send him right before my eyes... rofl


He was about to go into the room... and I went... XXXXX~~ Wait~~!!

He already saw us, but he was like about to enter liao, so he stepped back and reply "什么事?".

I this baka got carried by him and reply "你下个星期X有空吗?"

CQ turned and stare at me... why you all speak mandarin!!?? XDD

I was like.. oh.. yea hor... XD Baka boy... rofl.

And our conversation back to ang mo.

I ask him free anot... go out makan... den I say around evening or night... he like hmm... why leh? what big occasion?

Then I say no lah... just come out gathering... then he immediately ask... birthday ar? whose birthday? Then cq and me laugh it off....

Cq said ish for a girl, and he asked what kinda girl? and Cq said aiya, you come you know lah... then XXXXX replied aiyo, you never say how I buy present... I cant be going empty handed....

Awww...... his face ish so the cute can... plus his replies are so cute... like so omigosh...... *faints*

(wah lao... I am totally tio his gong tao liao..... I eat tio his saliva izzit... -___-;;;)

Anyway, he say see see first, have to check his schedule and let me know... or rather he said those at CQ's face.... we were thinking in mind that hope he doesnt mistake for the wrong person... XDD CQ say liddat must hold hands with Ben more infront of XXXXX liao... XDDD~~


Now... my no.1 worry is... will he be able to make it?!!!

If he doesnt interested in this session.. ask so much qns for wat... lol... So.. I... ASS-U-ME..... he ish coming?

I cant imagine if he rejects.... I will cry until NAFA floods... =____=;;;

Think I will mood swing like last time again... lol...


Let's think of the bright side.


If he attends... what should I do?!!! I will be so knn ccb nb nervous... AHHHHHHHH~~
Aiyo... I wana do so much things with him... but... in the end, we are still being seperated by that boundary of teacher and student. -____-

*haiz*


Why I always fall into forbbiden love... lol...


Beside this...

I am still waiting for someone to forgive me (I am sorry...) and waiting for his return.....


Anyway, today after all those crazy Q&A with XXXXX... we head off to Changi~!! With CQ, Ben, Alvin, Wet and of coz, me! XDDDD I know I am the brightest light bulb. HUMPH!


Was a fun trip.. wet is maciam like our tour guide.. telling us lotsa stories... I enjoy hanging out with wet alot as he is wooper knowledgable plus with bagus mandarin. All the best to your MOE interview! (I call wet kor kor... XD)

We went to Changi Village Hotel... but the lobby nothing to see.. and sad lah... kenot go up to explore or wateverso. T_T

After that, we walked a freaking long way to this deserted building which wet say is used to be for some army training? Was kinda scary but was fun too! It will be cool to take cosplay fotos there... but.. the building is kinda old and rotting... so things might fall down... I think lah.. rofl! XDDD~~ Some drug intakers hangs around there... we saw needles and those weird drugs i think... lotsa medicine tablets around...

And... most scary part is.... I.... GOT BITTEN BY MOSQITOESSSS~~ T__________T


Watashi beri long nv got bitten liao... :( SOB I WANT XXXXX~~!!! *cuddles up to XXXXX*

Siao liao.. living in own fantasy liao... kekeke.....



And.. as usual, he is the only reason that motivates me to blog coz I duno who and how to share my feelings with others.... I am afraid of being called show off or irritating or wat... I could keep on repeating all his words again and again in my mind... haiz... I must be deadly poisoned by him liao lah... tio his 花毒 liao... XDD~~


I shld go slp now... tmr gona wake early to do research... *CRIES*

-Jaa-

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/24/2007 12:47:00 AM

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Fuck.

I cant slp.


I am worried and nervous about year 3.


I feel stress now... feel like puking.


I am afraid of stress again.

NB.

Can I survive thru year 3? X_X
My class is full of talented people.


Gosh. Help.


*sigh*

Fuck it.

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/23/2007 02:05:00 AM

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Somehow,

I think I am good at handling my mom. =X

She was bad mood the past few days, but today I manage to make her laugh somemore... XDDD


I am good at handling her more than anyone else in this house. =X


I still cant belive school is reopening tmr. =_____=


Wo bu yaooooooooooooooo~~!!


I wana rot at home.
I wana play games.
I wana earn big money in RO.
I wana slp like no tmr.
I wana eat as and when I like.
I wana watch tv as and when I like.
I wana lie down as and when I like.
I wana do anything as and when I like.


But. no more of such life. I gona slog my life like mad again. Gona get burnt by deadlines. My sleeping fairies gona be killed by stress devils.

HELP. SOS.
. . . - - - . . .

*sigh*

I shld go bathe and slp.

Tmr is...... lesson... XDDD =X

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/22/2007 09:59:00 PM

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Haiz... things are making me so messed up nowdays...

I really cant tahan and nobody to talks to... haiz... that's why I am back to blogging... but anyway when school starts, I will back to blogging...


I tried to ask someone who was once close to me to online to chat with me on my problems but she say next time bah... =/ well... I am nothing to her.. her fren/gf are more impt...

but anyway, above is not impt.


1. One of my best pals is giving up our frenship. I was so shocked when I heard this. I was not at home and was outside after some tiring thingy.. but seriously, although I didnt want it to end up like this but I duno what else I could say to him. I am totally loss at words... I know I sucks... I am not a good fren or wat...I took frens forgranted... I only think about myself...

But, think again, what could a fren really do when u are in trouble... all we can is try to accompany u.. talk with u... and hope that u could get out of that situation asap... I think I have tried. At least I think I have try my best to accompany all my frens who needs me urgently and so... (but who are the ones accompany me when I need them badly?)

But, whatever it is, I hope he reads this message of mine.

Dear Friend,

I understand that we might not be by eachother's side all the time and share all the little things with eachother. But, I am very sure that we are on each other's mind all the time. We are not used to say "I love you" to eachother but hey, we all know we love eachother very much in our heart (as friend).

Perhaps, this is a point where God is trying to test our friendship. I don't know if we could survive through this, but I know I will do my best.

I am sure you would not want to let this 7 years of friendship die so easily with such small matters. We are not quarreling over things like backstabbing, cheat your money, harm you are whatsoever... We quarrelled over lack of communications.

Sad to say this, but, it feels like my previous relationship with u-know-who. We also lack of communications due to we are busily commiting ourselves in our current roles. We are so tied up by our roles and the stress. We couldnt spare extra time to share things with eachother which is very sad.

But, tell me, who could handle such situation well? The world is moving so fast and friends around you are moving as fast that you are so hard to catch up with them. Sometimes, you should stop and look behind for you friend to see if they are catching up. If they don't, stop and update yourself with them! Not they don't wana care about you, is they no longer know how to ask "how are you?" anymore as we get to know eachother longer.

If now we are people who are rich and dont even need to bother anything, I bet we will be so happy socializing with all our friends. People like us are having difficulties to balance things in their life.

Whatever it is, just put it behind us. I will still be here for you whenever you have sort things out and decide to come back to us again.


Your old pal,
Gwen







2. AIYO!!! My bird-day coming!! XDD~~ >////<

I wana date him out. =/

We planned to go out for dinner... but now the responsible lies on me.

I have to ask him out.

Like.... wtf....knn......ccb................nb.......

I cant bring myself to ask him that!! I am so shy!! I wanted him so much that I duno how to open my mouth! I melts upon seeing him. My legs go jelly when I see him. Like.. OMIGOSH HELP ME.

But, after so much complains, I still have to do it.

a. Should I say is my birthday if he ask dinner for what?

b. What if he rejects me?

c. Will he know I am that secret admirer?

d. I think I will go into deep depression if I get rejected.


But.. whatever it is.... I HAVENT ASK YET! AND I AM FREAKING SCARE TO ASK.


Omg... just let me die already. I had enough of such torture. I am afraid of losing anyone impt to me. I dont wana spoil this bond like how I spoil bonds last time.


3. Another close fren of mine is having some health problem... I am extremely worried too. Please go have a full body checkup. PLEASE GO. Dont give up on your life so easily over such thing. If you wana die one day, die with some other proud reasons. For now, try to keep your health in the best state and enjoy your life. It just started.

Even if that happens, it doesnt mean you will d*e so easily. You still have chance to recover. I am willing to donate any part of mine to you if that day comes. =)



Gosh. the 3 things above made me cried despite I am trying so hard to hide my worries. Please... help these poor souls...

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/22/2007 02:00:00 AM

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I feel friendless... :'(

Awis nobody wana go out with me... cant get anyone to pei me when I need them...


But, why am I complaining now...

Isnt your life just being so sucky and lonely since the day you are born?

=)

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/14/2007 11:46:00 AM

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Dear Santa God Fairy...

Please get me the followingS for my birthday.... =X

1. Drawing Pad/tablet that is for computer...

http://www.wacom-asia.com/bamboo/index.html

S$135(?)


The rest are to be update soon... XD

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/14/2007 10:36:00 AM

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OMFG.... Guess what...

Oh yea, before you guess what I am about to say, just guess what motivates me to blog.. XDD

X.X.X.X.X

XDDD Cant imagine I am so lucky sia... He was there to send the students off to korea trip too!! XD

Today I went out with CQ and Ben for a short gathering at suki sushi.. then they ask me wana send them off anot, den I ok lor..

Pei them all the way to airport, wait they check in and stuffs... and mana zhai... someone told me, EEE WHY HOD HERE!!?? Then I raise my head, I see de.. not HOD.. but, I saw XXXXX!! like.. OmIGOSH!! XDDD

I so jumpy and excited and pulled CQ to a corner and "XXXXX LAI LIAO!!!!" XDDD Shit... I tried to control, but still so high... XDD (omg, I thought I forget him liao... yuan lai yi zhi dou mei you wang diao ta)....

He got come talk to me wor... doki doki... he ask me why no go wor... I just say never go lor... XD;;; Shld tease him by saying u spon me ar... =X

Actually wana take photo with him oso since Vinz they all wana take foto.. but CQ and me kinda gona dry up if no take in water.. lol.. so we went BK first.. and mana zhai, they POOF... gone when we return... ;____;

I wanted to ask him drive me home.. since so nan de can come to an area near my hse... :(~~

I wanted to ask him where we going for year 3 oso..... X_X eeeeeeeeeee.. ren jia haben see him enough... 3 months of not seeing him makes me uber hungry for him... opps.. I sounds scary.. XDD~

But, anyway, still happy that I went out today and see tio him.... *doki doki*

*Fallen AngeL*
x 7/06/2007 02:05:00 AM

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