I have been rather lazy to blog nowdays.... lolx...
Anyway, I think I am not going to the "Sustainable Construction Exhibition" liao lor... nobody wana go and I dun wana go alone nor drag some innocent party who dun even know a single thing nor interested in it... *sigh*
I still feel kinda sad over the result...
RoMe closed down due to pc failure... another gaming place closed down....
GB got the same problem for me again... I hate to play when the player enjoys to insult others... feel so sianz inside...
Animaro I got no frens inside...no motivation to play...
I am neither here nor there... maybe I shld vanish like someone... he MIA for 1 month+ liao...haiz...
Sian ah....why do we have to live... argh.... Hate this world... 55 end of the world~~
Yea yea... been slacking... never update bloggy... -__-;;;
I hate to sign in all th time... so mafan... thus reduce my urge to blog.. (that's all excuses lah... XD)
Anyway, going out with RO ppl is fun lah... but not too often bah.. coz I got no much topic...lolx....
Sat rot at home...
Sunday went to Esplanade to see some duno wat exhibition that was intro by my HOD... paiseh.. I am not that level yet to appreciate... @_@;;; and I really duno what link it has to do with my course... @@;;
Nafa really change ID deparment into wat 3D design... and those vc thingy into media design... @_@;;;
Got my result slip. I am VERY VERY VERY disappointed. =/
I thought I did well in ED... but it didnt turn out to be so... -___-;;; shit ED... shit nafa... shit design!! -____-
Haiz... I again think I maybe not suitable to be designer.... =____=;;;
My heart is broken sia... work so hard... but nothing fruitful in return.... =/
I wish for at least a B.. but I got C.... damn... =_=;;
We went jalan around... most of the time searching high and low for my Panda Chan.. XD~~
But... no luck. :( Guess I gona try those toy shops at Far east.. T_T
At nite went AMK with my sis... gosh...
Alot changes!! T_T I miss the old AMK... some parts I dun even remember them if you just throw me there, I have to recall it from somewhere like never change much and slowly playback the path till the new area den I know where am I... -_-;;;
Still got alot to explore... but damn late liao... haha... The This Fashion cannot try clothes... so we ney buy... we dun hab perfect figure.... thus we cannot suka suka buy... -_-;;;
I saw Phua's photo... at this weird tuition center... and saw HC.. but ney call her.. coz I paiseh... I so fat... -_-;;; lolx.. call her next time when go with mich bah.. coz even I call her, I oso duno wat to chat...
Saw this irritating IDIOT.... Edshit Poon...lmao... XD I siamz him... he was so engross in watching some game demo... @@;;;
Today, er... actually is yesterday aka Thursday... went out with my sis to Chinatown Popular again...
This time we more hiong... ok lah.. is me hiong.. I grabbed 12 books.... 12 X 5 = 60... plus some stationaries... plus my sis's 3 books... we hit 99bucks.... =X~~~ My sis almost fainted when she saw the price... lmao.... hey.. got 50bucks is mine ok!
I saw some CDs going for 3 for 10 bucks... was tempted... some old ones lah.. like energy, zai zai, fir, english ones.... blah blah...
Oh yea, I saw DBSK's step by step out... at AMK this vcd shop...
Shld go slp... later going out with RO ppl.. yea... again the RO ppl... lmao... @_@;;;
It's my ex 2nd hometown... (the other ex is hougang)
I spent my days as a teenager there...
All my laughters and saddness, they are all becoming a part of my memories there...
My last visit was Teachers' Day... but I dun consider it as a proper visit coz I didnt go to AMK central! I didnt stepped into AMK central for a year!
I miss AMK... in fact, I miss neighbourhood area... I had enough of city area... high classy area... @_@
My sis said I maciam like aunty sia... like old old neighbourhood area... @_@;;;
Like many designers or rich people, I hope to buy those old shop house as my house in the future... but the oni fear I have is.... INSECTS!!! COCKR*ACHES!!! T_T
Ahh... I wish there is this kinda Puma shop in SG!! T_T
You can customise your own puma shoe!! T_T
I wan I wan~~ T____________________T
Japan got the outlet... I wonder how much to customise your own shoe... if it's affortable.. I might beg my sis to get her fren who is in Japan to help...
I was force to change my blog to new de.. @@;; duno wat google thingy... damn... @_@ I hate changes... lolx...
And, Hell yea. My mood went totally crazy today. XDD~~~~~
I was suppose to go sch to meet XXXXX to collect the tix for SFS's degree grad show for the rest, whom asked me to help them take as they hab to work...
So, when ard 6pm, I smsed him if he is coming down and if he is joining us...
He replied "Ya, coming." Awis so short and sweet. XD
Anyway, after like 10 mins he appeared at foyer, I went out from the lvl 1 of WingA as Iwana enjoy the aircon... Then I walked up to him, at first he ney notice is me lor!! XDD~~
Silly boy. =X
When he finally realised is me, he like "Wah, put on makeup somemore, so pretty."
WAH LAO... MY HEART LIKE ALMOST STOP BEATING AND GONA NOSE BLEED ON THE SPOT.
He say after the show can go to the reception there to makan... XDDD
I only smile smile back at him lah.. XDD Then he handed me the rest of the tix... @_@ He went back his office to do things and say will come back later...
Silly boy got extra tix for Ben... aiya... he oso nv come.. I know u miss him... =X
After the long wait, CQ they all still ney come coz they hab to finish up their work as tmr hab to submit.. @_@;;;
As I was waiting at foyer with Linda, Sab Long (HOD) appeared too... (LIKE OMG? WHY SHE HERE!!! X_X *HIDES*)
She saw me, and gave me this weird look and stared at me a few sec... maybe she stunned tio coz I put makeup... @@;;
After that XXXXX came down again... I asked him got extra tix for Linda's fren anot.. den blah blah blah.. small chat... den den Sab Long walked over and say to him "Later you bring them all in lah..."
XXXXX "I not so "powderful" to bring them in..."
Sab Long slightly pinch XXXXX's arm and say "You dont act lah..."
*giggles*
I was so... O_O and I giggled too... but, I turned my head lah... kekeke...
XXXXX is so cute... XD~~~ and silly... GOSH!!~~ XDDD
After that, CQ still haben come lor, Sab Long ask us to go in liao.. den XXXXX so observant... he knws I am waiting for CQ and he say "ooo, you waiting for (CQ)Tsae Jing ah?" (he oso not blind, so obvious u awis hang out with CQ... -___-)
He offered to stay behind and wait and asked me to go in too after that as they are really calling guest to be seated.... I handed him the rest of the tix and went in with my Sab Long... kowaii. I am so afraid of her sia... @_@;;;
After awhile, CQ and the rest came in... Initially, I think XXXXX wana sit with us, but Sab Long called him to join her.. ARGH. =/
-The fashion show......-
After the show, we all go out to makan... before we left the hall, we saw our design board pinned up... wanted to take a photo and a proper look, but CQ say she is very hungry, so we ended up makan first...
At first we stood there, duno where to start, den XXXXX suddenly appeared. (before that I was trying to hunt for him.. XD) I shocked the shit out of me sia... =X I was really stunned tio...and I kinda.. yelled. =X He like O_O at me... kakkaka.... I got weak heart and weak immune system against him.
He was just trying to be nice and ask us to go makan... XDD~~
After that he walks off....
We go grab some food and makan, it was kinda high class as compared to previous catherings on such events.... actually is much more high class... event got mussels and some duno wat salmon thingy which was cook with wine I think, kinda strong... and it taste damn salty.. didnt like such heavy taste thingy.. @_@;;;
Overall, the food look high class, and not those disposable plates and utensils... but, it dun really suits my taste... actually, such event, I dun really enjoy makaning... as... I CANT SIT DOWN!!! XDD I prefer to eat while sitting down... lol...
My eyes keep lock target on him... he just float around... got a part he like wana make way over to us.. but someone called him and he end up chatting there... argh. baka. =(
CQ was too hungry and she keeps on makaning... I didnt wana let her be alone, so I nv go "ha la" with him... >_< CQ apologised to me that she too hungry lah.. kenot make chance for me to chat with him... haiz... I know... I understand, but I still find it a pity...
It's always hard to balance between fren and love... But, most of the time, I try to put on frens.... Last time I put too much on Love... thus got a gap between fren... now I try to balance both....
After that, he went off to his office, and after CQ and me makan, we went This Fashion to jalan abit... Was tempted to try on some clothes, but due to my makeups.. I didnt wana dirty the clothes thus I nv go try, watch CQ do "fashion show" for me... kekeke.....
After that byebye lor... haahah...
How... I feel lost.
I tried to forget about him, but both Monday and Today, he made my heart race even more faster than last time. -___-;;; he is such a baka. T_T
I know I should stop crazy over him... I know he will nv be mine, and I am not fit to have him....
I know... but I cant help loving him... =/
HAIZ.
Baka Silly Boy!! T_T
*sigh*
Anyway, sidetrack, I think he might be 39...? lol.. super wild guess... as I notice both of his office got this monkey toy thingy... ahh... I used to wana buy that oso de.... saw at Maria's hse... XDDD and I used to be SUPER CRAZY over monkey stuffs... now lesser.. but if super cute ones I still will buy... Now is more towards turtle and froggy stuffs... wakakak... XDD
Next time I think I shld make a post of my toys... wakkaa... =XX~~
Still.. haiz... You keep lead me around... until I am so lost. =/
Haha... I should blog... been rotting for quite some time.. @_@;;;
Friday -
Went to Geylang with CQ, Ben, Vinz, Wet and Linda...
Quite a fun outing... but poor Linda cant understand most of our conversation as she duno Chinese... @@;;; Had a hard time to convey our chinese jokes to her in English... haha... Was damn full that day... argh... already told myself must control.. but still ended up damn full there... lol... Enjoy it quite alot sia.. XDD
That nite, I realise this tag (part of lappy oso) was stained, so I wiped with a tissue... mana zhai.. I wiped too hard... kns, the original paint came off too.. now it become a bigger spot.. argh... heart pain sia... though it is not really the lappy that was kena.. T_T
Sunday -
Went to take photo for my client.. wah.. the place is on the fort canning mountain... was abit out of time, so I end up taking a taxi over as I dun wana carry my lappy and hunt for the place oso...
The kids are cute, and they really are from rich families... branded clothes, maids tagging along... fabulous ang mo... gosh. and worse, the tution center is in a country club! O_O;;;; damn... lol...
The first class de kids are ok with me ard.. still got this little kid after colouring something, he try to gimme his drawing... ahh.... demo I ney take lah... coz they hab to bring back show parents... XDDD
But, the bad thing happened in 2nd class... this kid was uncomfy of me ard!! >_< and he dun wan take photo!! he keep crying and wana go home... .argh.. I so scare I offend those rich tai tai's bao bei... but lucky... in the end he was ok for me to be ard, and I try to take when he wasnt aware... XDD but he still >=( when seeing the cam... lol...
Ah... makes me feel like be a kindergarden teacher.. well, I used to dream of being a primary sch chinese teacher who opens a flower shop and pet shop. LOL. What a crazy dream.. xDDD and now I am doing a totally different thing... dreams are dreams... reality is reality... XDD~~
When leaving, my client directed me how to Xia shan (get off the mountain) and guess wat. it was so near and easy to get back to dhoby ghaut mrt!!! T_T;;;; On the map maciam so far sia... argh.. baka ore.. T_T
Went to PS to jalan abit.. PS changed quite alot since my last visit... haha... but half way abit giddy and wana puke so went home early... partly oso bcoz of my stupid heavy lappy lah.. @_@
Got my deposite and bought lotsa food for home... niao niao.. those food cost me 20+ bucks... like so expensive... lol... bought some design books oso... XDD~~ first 50 bucks poof liddat. =_=
Monday -
Gosh, the previous nite, mich and me gb until like 3am or 4? LOL CRAZY US!!~~ LOL... we wana earn more money in gb!! XDD I want my panda suit!! XD~~~
Didnt slp, carry on do my job project.. den went to sch like 10am+ to pass XXXXX smthg and take fashion show tix from him. AHHH!!~~ I went to his other office and smsed him, wanted to call him but nv lah... lolx... I scare kena cancel like the other time.. =X~~
The first thing he said to me is "Why u looked so slpy?" XDD~~ Of coz lah.. GB the previous nite... =X >///////////< I told him I ney slp... kekek...
Den I ask him for the tix, he say at the other block so we walk over lor... arghh.... just we 2.......... gosh.. *nose bleed*
He bring me go take the cargo lift... which is like so... mei you ren de place... ahhh.............................. *nose bleed even more* den we walk thru lvl 3 to get to other block den wait lift again. XD~~
On the way he apologised to me nv reply my email on the job hunt de lor.. He say he was too busy to help me... aiya, excuses lah.. =X But I am happy at least he apologised to me.. XDD~~ he ask me I found job anot.. blah blah... den I tell him abt the booth I might be designing.. den he say I can go ask him if I need help.... AHHHHHH *die from loss of nose blood* He ask me what I do for holiday, den I say I doing the 3D models in Viz for my pass projects... den he say very good... say can do other proj oso.. but I say I dun like ID. =X
I told him Ron intro me job but I rejected, den he say shld take mah... freelance is good but attachment will make u more discipline.. which is yi zhen jian xie.. I know I got very poor self discipline lah... T_T wuuu wuuu wuu...
He is so nice.... argh.. shit, I tot I wana forget him de?!!! >_< But now he make me again so.... high. shit. really seeing him isnt such a good thing for me, but yet my heart yearns to see him.. XDD like so shit lor... dame yo! dun sink further! T_T
Demo, he is still cute!!!~~~ Hot~~!! Attractive~~!!
Demo again, he wear so.. jialat shirt that day. Again that light blue jeans and this weird top with some thai emboidary along the edge of pocket and the collar... like so... dotz. LOL... and it is in some dirty green colour... @@;;; he got weird taste. XDDD~~
I die die must secure my booth design, so got excuse to go see him sia.. XD~~~
Wah lao... u know after that, the whole day I keep smile to myself lor... lol...
Went to bugis to jalan abit after that, bought some sushi to winnie's fren's hse...
HAd a mahjong session with them. Lucky no play money ahhhhhhhh...... WATASHI SU SI lor.... first time oni won 1 round after a complete game... like so wtf. nv been so low luck b4 in mahjong, and I suspect is the sushi I ate. su shi = su si... lolx.... so mi xin lor... XDD~ but like so accurate. lol....
(shit, duno wat i did, some of the blog i type after this line gone. damn. -_-)
Anyway, met mom at north point as dad hab to go khatib to cook soup for the stall for next day, den we went jalan ard, see TV.. but all too exp leh... and I am not able to affort totally for a TV.. T_T hse TV like CMI liao.. haiz...
Saw mom's fren working at tiandi.. wah.. I buy comic got discount anot? XDDD
Dad came to fetch us after that... wah niao.. such a long day.... and the following tuesday is coming.. @_@;;;
Tuesday - which is today...
Had a lunch date with Mimi and Tracy, at a Jap resturant at Far East... Mimi took half day to go massage lor.. she really know how to enjoy life sia... brought my heavy lappy along so that tracy could lend me her photoshop.. =D the food there was quite nice lah... after that, rain sia when we gona leave far east.. and it was such a heavy crazy rain!!! T_T;;;
At first we tot no umbrella lor.. but Tracy dig her bag and found 1... XDD so she hab to run to and fro to shelter us... but half way, got this pretty gal offered to shelter me... wah... XDD she even keep so close to me till touch my arm.. wah.. yan yu. LOL kns... ppl are juz being nice nia lah.. wat u thinking... XDD~~
After that, mimi went massage, tracy go home study and this notti kida gwen went kino to slack...
Read some chinese book... and they were so funny until I almost LOL in kino!! lucky managed to stop myself from LOL... haha...
After that, abt 4 plus mimi called me ask me where am I... and we went for a high tea... XDD Thanks man, she treated me for high tea... Had this red bean bean curd thingy at the Central cafe at taka basement... quite nice~!! XDD Both are my fav... in a combo! LOL~~
Then, we jalan abit here and there... went kino as her boss wan her to get him this Tai Ji book.. @@;; alot shops today got company function.. like zara lah, MNG lah and duno wat lah.. @@;;
Today I wear till damn casual.. with slippers... den Mimi drag me go in LV shop.. my first time into LV shop... XDD~~ I was infront of shop and I tell her I wear till liddat still wana go in ar... she point inside and say oso got ppl wear liddat mah, den I looked in and turned to her. "That one is maid leh." =_= she so damn paiseh.. XD~~ den she say I be her maid lor.. argh... baka mimi! T_T but she is joking lah.. mimi is very nice lah.. keke... enjoy hang out with her very muchy!~ XDD
I used to eye on this LV sling bag.. but I know I will nv be able to affort one.. @@;;
After that, went to Tanjong Pagar to meet CQ to pass her fashion show tix... she kpo abt me meeting XXXXX... kekek... XDD~~ had a short chat and we parted. she was kinda happy when I say I will meet her for lunch... next time. LOL...
Went to China town to meet sis to go the popular there which is having lotsa chinese books sales... Grab quite few design books.. though some is old.. but they are dirt cheap. Even stationaries there are having sales... But the book are all in a messy order.. u practically hab to see every shelves to hunt for things that u like... @@;;;
Was carrying a lappy, abit hard to dig, but me this kinda kiasu + pro digger aunty managed to grab some nice books home... the original price will hit more den hundred for those, but it is less den 50 for those I bought! XDD~~
Damn tired sia, been running ard SG for the past few days.. @_@;; lucky tmr I can rest.. XD~~~
Demo, Thursday still hab to go fashion show.... and I might get to see him. AHHH~~ I hab to forget him!!!! T_T;;;
Now, I shall go to bed, damn exhausted sia... @_@;;; and slpy!!! XDD~~
And, I know, this is such a damn freaking long and long winded entry with lotsa junks.. XD~~ esp the part I meet XXXXX.. is so over detailed. LMAO.
My best fren in NAFA nv tell me she moved to SG... 1 week liao.
Well... I have nothing much to comment liao...
Everyone ard me is showing their card liao...
I just quietly sit and watch bah.
Yes, I secured my job...
I am doing a Website+namecard+flyer design for this tution center...
Her husband is interested to hire me do booth designwhich is at HK lor... and also his company's namecard and website... Even asked me wana do bag design anot, but I rejected on this... Not really my field and I will only try it if I manage to finish off the things they gave...
They say after these 2 might be other projects coming up... wah... personal designer sia.
But, I feel abit cheap labour... haiz... I am too soft hearted when ppl beg me for cheaper price... and she is my fren's fren.... harder to be firm at pricing.
My fren say $ not impt, experience more impt. Pi leh... I am so farking in need for $. My family is low cash, I am low cash too. I need to get alot things for my daily life, but I been tolerating. I need to change my watch and hp... these will make me heartache all the time... I wont abandon them, but keep them away safely...
I need more clothes for me to meet clients and stuffs. I need cosmetics for formal events. I need a scanner+printer as part of my surviving tool for work. I need to get better desktop as my 5 years old one is like gona CMI soon...
My cooling sport shoes is spoilt, and I got no bucks to get a new one. I needa wear adidas climate cool series to reduce my feet skin problem... it is all caused by sweaty feet and palm... I consulted doc last time, they suggest me do an op to cut away some of the sweat glands... @_@;; consider a big op as hab to cut inside the chest area.
But anyway, I am overall feeling abit... below average...
I really duno who to tok to anymore, except blogging all my sad things out...
I wish there is some one to listen to me.
If there is really no. 8 pawn shop in this world... I guess I will use my feelings to exchange for more talent... as least I wont feel so easily depress...=)
I am so sick of everything. haiz...
Next week I will get to see XXXXX 2 times... I feel so luan. Of coz I wana see him, but I know I hab to stop all these and forget abt him already. I dun wan to force anyone to accept my feelings for them...
Is this gona be my last heartbeat for others..? =)
But all I know is he will be the first and the last man in my life. I prefer gals if I would hab to choose another guy.. lolx...
What am I man... -___-;;;
Shld I get ODM watch...? It's the brand he is wearing... =/
HAiz... but I just said wana forget him nia. ARGH.
I wish I have a memory lost, but all my knowledge and skills not lost... so I could continue living without having any feelings for anyone. =)
>_<
Xin, yi zhi hao tong... zi cong ni li kai le wode shi jie, wo de xin cong lai mei you zhen zhen zheng zheng de kuai le guo.
haiz...
very emo tonite.
Guess I will blog abt wat I did today tmr...
Tmr nite going geylang, Monday gona go nafa den go find winnie and her frens to play mahjong... lolx....
EVERYTIME ALSO LIKE THAT. NOT I NEVER TRIED BEFORE. YOU HUMANS JUST ENJOY LOOK DOWN ON ME. NAFA ALSO LIKE THAT, MY CLOSEST FREN OSO LIKE THAT, CLUB PEOPLE ALSO LIKE THAT.
I KNOW I AM GOOD FOR NOTHING, MIGHT AS WELL DIE OFF LAH.
DUN HELP DUN HELP LAH.
YOU THINK I SO PRO LIKE U ALL, SAY ABIT KNOW HOW TO DO.
I IS FUCKING DUNO HOW TO DO THATS WHY KEEP ASK U ALL.
Task: To love me, accompany, sayang me, play with me, let me bug, let me glued onto, let me pester, let me sayang, let me play with, let me bite. =X
Skill: Cheering up ver.100, Humourous chat ver. 8.1. Need to be familar with Girl XP or Girl Vista or Mac Gal. Other skills are welcomed except flirting skills. =X
Salary: My unlimited amount of love and care and nag. =X
Qualification: Anyone who is older than me and is willing to take care of me.
People who just wana flirt or guys may not apply.
Ps: Just another crap entry, but if you really interested may apply... XD
Went to Levis Fashion show.. and saw Chao Guo Hui... First time putting on makeup... just simply put all the shits on my face... First time did eyeliner... overall I was quite satisfied except abit too thick and the hot weather caused me have to keep use tissue to gently press on my face to absorb the sweat and not wiping of my makeup...
Had Crystal Jade for dinner with CQ, Ben, Wet and Alvin. Fun outing... hehe...
Thursday -
Went to NAFA to see degree grad show... Ok lah... duno how to appreciate. =X Saw only the ID and ED show.. the rest didnt dare to enter... @_@;;;
Wanted to go see comtemporary writing as it was under XXXXX... but still nv go lah...
Was suppose to meet this fren I knew from fridae who was doing her grad show too... but she have to rush off somewhere thus nv meet up.
Met sis and went for the midnite shopping... just bought a magazine from kino, a jap mag called arena 37°C... DBSK as cover page... 20+ bucks... inside got lotsa Jrock bands... =D~~~
Went far east to shop until kinda late... bt, BAPE start to put price tag besides their product... wakakaka... =x but 1 tee for SGD$170+... =_=;;; I will only buy if I am as rich as XXXXX.. =X
Saw some cool guys street wear shop opening... but inside got these 2 guys wrapping their arms ard eachother's waist... guess they are.. ahem? str8 guys will liddat meh... somemore not awhile nia... wraping while drinking and chatting.. so ai mei.
At nite saw this necklace and this arm warmer from visual shoxxx... ordered them... and collected today... haha...
Friday (today) -
Suppose to meet up Visual Shoxxx to get my things, but I overslpt... @_@;;; Was typing my resume the previous nite till 4am... I started ard 2am... lolx.. mich, I am done with it already... XDDD Was suppose to meet her at 1pm at city hall, but 12.30pm I still at punggol. Smsed her saying I will be late... she said hab to rush off to Tampines by 2pm, so I met her there instead. Nearer and easier for me. =D
Love the 2 things I bought... wakakaka... XDDD
Went NAFA again for the grad show... wanted to meet up the fren... but again, she kenot make it... =_=;;; having some discussion with her lect.... guess we not fate sia.Abit sadded...
Went to carpark to see if his car is ard.. but no luck.
Sat in a 7-11 nearby to rot for 3 hours... first time rot inside a 7-11 for so long... inside got table n chairs.. =D
Was eating ice cream while observing people walking outside...
During this period of time, I smsed alot people... well, not lot lah.. but quite a few... wanted to ask them out.. but none actually able to go out with me. how sad. =/
Some already have date, some don't tell me what they are doing in SG(well, I guess shld be dating with her ahem)and some duno doing what, no reply... and some I know they dun wana go out and somemore last min request so I nv sms... Some working. But those who replied, thanks alot... =)
Actually, my mood today was super duber bad. (aiya, u everyday oso bad mood)
Why?
I had a bad dream in the morning. I was with my nafa frens, and we go to this shop opened by XXXXX and his fren... and who knows.. this fren is his gay partner... and they actually make out in the shop, of coz, not infront of us, but we know they are doing it. =/ (worse is the partner is a damn lao uncle. =/)
Damn, I feel so devastated in my dream. I woke up from crying...
I am trying to forget abt him... Trying real hard... =) I don't bear to forget about him... but I know I have to. Coz I dun wana lost another person dear to me... I am afraid he might find out if I let my lust continue... I am afraid he will avoid me... He is a very nice and good mentor... =)
But, I am grateful that someone once dear to me replied my sms... and chat abit with me... =D It cheers me up.. thanks my dear fren...
After today, I felt much more lonely... coz I really got no frens to accompany whenever I need them urgently...
Maybe this is really my fate and life... Wo de Ming....
Ganbatte Gwen... Go sleep, and everything will be fine when you wake up. =)
Lonely, I am so Lonely... I have nobody... All by my own~~~~
Get used to it!
Tmr steamyboat session... guess I will quietly eat again.. duno wat to say... haha...
