while waiting for my nail polish to dry.... let's talk about today.
AHHHH... morning so suay. duno why, just cant managed to get up. I missed interior class... damn. T_T I wana attend the lesson de... but after I woke, I fall back to slp again. wanted to be abit late, like wake at a later time, which will make me late ard half an hr later, but who knows, the next moment i woke, was like halfway thru the class... after that, i tot maybe i shld just go for exhibition. mana zhai. i woke at 12.30, thinking that my lesson is 2.30. T_T nabei. I rush like hell, jump off my bed, change clothes, grab my stuffs and rush to sch. i got brush teeth lah. XD
After that, flag a cab, ah, agin a merc cab.. XD anyway, reached sch ard 1pm... >_<
CQ they all sit at the first row... today is, lecture for exhibition... yesh, he is the one doing the lecturing... *love love* he got real cute actions... =D anyway, got one part during the lesson, he called my name to ans a qns. out of so many #@$@%#$%%@^%$ ppl... he called my name! XD but, aiya, i think coz i was smsing.. so he called my name... T_T but still, i am happy he called my name! XD
there was a few part he was giving us funny expression when he heard our conversation on various stuffs... XDDD and we asked the ppt from him, and nabei. i was so freaking panicky as there might be his photo in the thumbdrive!!! X_X but lucky no hab, but i got some of the exhibition proj which is saved under his name. bet he went O_o? when he saw those files. XDDD~~
Damn. HE IS CUTE CUTE CUTE. *drools*
Though sometimes i think he is abit too old for me, but, age is not a problem! XD Daijoubu! conclusion, he is not photogenic after so many snaps.. XDDDD~~ But i still lub him! XDD~~
But, wat is love? =/ CQ asked me today, do you admire him or like him or respect him or LOVE him? @_@;;;
Watashi shiranai. I just wana be with him all the time and for the rest of my life. Taking care of him, and whatever u will think of...
:(
How m I suppose to gib him the gift which i intended to gib him on vday? staff room so secured, need to scan card de.. and i dun wan ppl to regconise me when i gib him the thingy. T_T and, i cant send to his hse else it will make me seems like a stalker. put at his car later MIA how?! -___-;
Please gimme some suggestions, domo arigatou! XD
And, suggest me what to buy for a guy oso... and is an adult o... dun suggest me some childish thingy... XDD~~~
*love love*
*snaps back to reality and start cracking on proj*
So sicky... went to doc this afternn.. after that str8 away go meet CQ and Ben to do proj... >_<~~ tsurai desu... >_<~~ Kurushi~~ Super not well.
Drip drip, sneeze sneeze.. >_<
But, there is a little reward for me today... XD~~
Was at National Library... at the 8th floor... was doing some research.. and b4 CQ and Ben came, I was browsing other not relavant section.... saw this annual report of nafa... and I went to flip thru it.... and.. OMG~~~
There is XXXXX~!! He is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!!~~ XDD nice smile he has... ahhhhhhhh *melts* So... unexpected to see his photo in national lib... ahhhh... *hearty hearty*
I miss him so muchy... >_< I wan his sayang... but, I can only dream of it... XDDDD
Size & Population: 18 Sq Km with an estimated 78,000 residents.
About: Located in the central region of Singapore. There are seven sub-zones in Bukit Timah; Swiss Club, Holland Road, Ulu Pandan, Hillcrest, Coronation, Leedon Park and Farrer Court. There are many restaurants and shopping malls in the area.
Residential: This is where you get a residential mix of high quality landed property and condominium housing. Many high profile businessman, expatriates and ministers stay in this area. Bukit Timah (District 11) - Rental prices in Bukit Timah are among the highest in Singapore.
Property: There are currently 33 Properties up for sale or rent in this zone. Of which 20 Properties are for sale and 13 Properties are for Rent.
Wah.. he is sooooooooooo rich. and that hse is under his name de wor... and i think is a bunglow... XDDD
Damn... I actually drop a tear for a guy?!!! O_O Bu KE NENG!!! T_T;;;
I... really... like him... it's so strong feelings... but I know, he will never like me...
Damn... why always liddat... I awis gave my love away to ppl that dun like me...
Is this my life? Maybe I will never find a true love in my life...
No love... haiz...
I getting depress again... lolx
Anyway.. today went vivo for case study... so tiring.. walking whole day... today CQ and me treat BEnny the whole day as his bday is coming.. We were talking abt XXXXX the whole day... lolx... making me blush the whole day....
I feel like getting something for him... but I wonder what he likes... lolx...
I am afraid he is a gay nowdays... though I used to think he is one... ^^;;
How...
Should I continue drowing in my own fantasy..?
What tiao jian I hab to woo ppl... haiz... si xin ba...
Zhi yao xin si le... she me fan nao dou mei you le...
this was typed few days back, but wasnt able to post it successfuly on my home pc.. got problem.. so saved in notepad and now, i am sending it out from lappy... XDDD
Ahhh... been super.. duber... wooopppperr.... BUSY!!! >_<;;;
No breaks at all... but, I somehow enjoying it... lolx... just feel like devote into my school stuffs... =D
Maybe there is a new motivation for me now... XDD~~
I seriously always felt that, living for myself is useless, unless I live for someone else... ^^;;;
Anyway, I think Denise is having some problem with her relationship... sounds complicated... Do hope she is fine with dealing it... =) Anytime u need a listening ear, I will be there for u... these few weeks I still can spare time if u ever need... =D
Talking abt her.... When I see her getting in troubles in relationship... I starts to worry... Not happy or what. Does that means I really could let her go already and treasure her as a very nice friend?
I think, I can confidently give an answer now. It's a Yes... =D Why force it when I cant give her any happiness and plainly empty promises... might as well let her go find someone she really could spend time and feel comfortable with... I think I could understand why you always like to ask me go find a new target if there is one... lolx...
But still, I love you as a very great friend who show me another chapter in my life... Thank you... =D
I think this is the first time I ever say such things so str8 and public... haha... Dont worry, I will pray for you and your relationshipp... XDDD
Talking abt relationship... my best fren in NAFA is out of love... she is the one initiated the breakup... and yet she is down... That's her first love... she wanted to break due to time management and she thinks that the feeling is fading... and maybe other reasons lah... But, no matter what, this really proves that, you will only treasure when you lost it... ^^;;; Silly girl.. Please be back my old CaiQing... and let me bully... XDDD you always staring into the blank scares me.. and makes me worried... >_<;;;
As for me... Relationship is something I wouldnt like to force anymore... ting tian you ming... lolx... But, you can never stop me from falling for someone... XDD~~~ current sweetheart really makes my heart flutters like mad... ahhhh.... and is a GUY.... yea, still that guy. Damn. It's been burning for so long... lolx...
Maybe I am sick of being hurt by girls and str8s.... Afterall, a guy might not be a bad choice if he is really the PERFECT MAN... XDDDD But, talk so much, if the guy is not this GUY... I think I wont hab feel lah.. XDDD The feeling of being greatly in love with someone is so amusing... so nice... to feel my heart pounds... I thought my heart gona stop pounding for a long time... lolx...
Love.... What an amusing thing... making human beings go round and round over it... XDDDD~~
I always stared at this building when I passed by.... coz of the striking big metal butterflies on the building.... and.. I never bother to notice the name of the building...
I thought it was some hotel or such.. and.. who knows.
IT'S PICO!!! O_O
If not wrong, it's the biggest design company in Singapore... O_O (next biggest is kingsmen.. I think, cher tell us de)
Ahh.... U are PICO..... damn. Next time I pass by sure gona take a CLOSER look at you... XDD~~
I am utterly disappointed with such things happening in boybands...
First was 5566, Xiao Dao left. (But, now I dont care abt 5566.. =P)
Next was Energy, Toro and Milk left.
and now what.
LUCIFY's SHINYA LEFT. #@%$#^%$#@@%&%**^@#@#@@
I dont care why you left, but at least, please stand out to give your fans a proper explaination. I thought you were the one with the most matured mind in the band... the coolest attitude... and the best behavior...
Ha! Today went out with the club... Siew Hong is there too... haha... kena pulled into EXCO.... =X
Anyway, it's kinda unusual for us to meet... like...10pm!!! O_O YEA!! 10PM!!
Just for supper, as the rest arent free the rest of the days and we need to rush the video clip for YA... ^^;;
Anyway, was quite ok.. managed to talk much more than my previous 2 outings...
I just feeling so topicless nowdays... dont feel like talking... @_@;;;
Today went to pick up my registered mail at singpost... =D~~ My NANA ring~ the finger armor~~ *weee~~* Love it lotsa... but... too big lah... used bluetack to hold it in place... =D~~~~
Damn. Tmr is Sunday liao.... Sch reopen liao!! -_____-;;; watashi havent rest enough... X_X and hab to deal with projects already.... and.. the exhibition presentation..... seriously. I am nervous... very scared.... I scared that I will be loss at words or dont do well.... >_< *no confident* *sigh*
Yea... I think I get on my feets quite fast nowdays... and I drop into the dark fast too... in simple. my mood swings are coming in huge waves... ^^;;; Nvm gua... just keep myself busy... and everything will be forgotten... X_X
Anyone wana be a webmistress/webmaster in leeyoungae.com.sg? XP Feel like stepping down.... =/
IF she did, she would have let everyone know it...
She only let everyone know about her current gf...
I know I am not as pretty as her... but, I know I love you more than her.
But, whatever it is... it's all over. I am tired of thinking about such things anymore.
Besides this, I am tired of pushing myself so hard to get attention by people. I joined clubs, help out people, set up this and that... just only to get attention.
I am lonely... I am scared of not being needed...
But, now I know, no matter how hard or how much I do, I am never needed. I was never important at all to anyone.
Feel like going to BA and MA.... >_<;;; which is quite impossible for a slacker bug like me...
Feel like going into photography(part time), advertising(part time or full time dip) and Theatre production (part time or full time dip)...
These could surely enforce my skill as an exhibition designer... XDDD~~
I used to study this course for the sake of someone as I would like to work the same line as her, and she thinks this line is fun... and might go back to work along this line.
But now, I really grew a passion for Exhibition Design and love it alot....
And, I feel like studying until MA to... see... someone... XP
But. Who knows? After my passion for that someone dies off, I will be the slacker bug again... XDD~~~
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My family been asking me to pack my stuffs... But, I feel like slacking... and somemore, I got quite a no. of project to do... sianz... this term's projects like never ending... didnt rest at all.... argh.......... and. been fixing my stupid pc.... alamak, can u please heal.... all the virus please SHOOO!! T_T
Ahhh... time for me to go slp... and dream of.... XXXXX... XDDDDDD~~~
Oh yea... just now makan at American Club was not bad.... but, somehow, nowdays I hardly talk when go out with the club... I duno wat to tok abt... @@;;; or rather, I dont feel like toking much nowdays... >_< But, in sch, bo bian... must tok, if not, nobody will notice ur existance.... T_T pathetic...
Ahhh... I wana have exhibition class everyday!!~~ XDDDD~~ I love the course, and the..... XXXXX.... lolx....the other XXX oso not bad lah... LOL...
Aren't it obvious if you are in my class? Bet u know wat the hell I am talking... XDD~~
*love love*
OH YEA. HAvent colour my dear AYAME SAMA~~~ T_T Sketch liao, let it rot there... @@;;; oh yea, did I even mention I drew Ayame sama in angel look - Mikaeru? ^^;;
well.... I feell ike colouring it so much... BUT! I wana scan it up first, and I dont think hab the mood to colour... but, who knows, since I got a lappy now, I can render it soon.... when I am free... but, afterall, I hab to get it scanned and put into my lappy first mah... -_-;;;;;;;;
Anyway, nitez!!! Btw, I am glad to know there is someone who reads my blog quite regularly.... XDDD *happy~* *heart flutters*
..... wtf... i hate my desktop.... type halfway hanged. and I said so much thingy. nabei. -____-;;;;; ccb... #@%$#$^%$#@!@^%$#@$#@$#^%#%^%$$#@$#@$#@^$#%
Anyway, cut short, got time den say.
1. I am admiring a guy together with Caiqing, and the other lady I am admiring is slipping off from her 1st place in my ranking system. and I went to hunt where this guy lives.. =XXXX
2. I know who is FLAVIA liao... but dont mention it or say it out if I have told u... as I dont want her to get into any trouble... and please dont spread it on and, gib her some privacy lah.... ^^;;
3. Temp change back to this skin, lazy to make new skin, maybe will snap photos of ppl I admire and make into a skin... XDDDD
4. backache like siao.
5. still busy with projects... @_@;;; did I mention my stage design was selected? and we hab to fine tuned it before meeting actual client.
6. Lappy kena virus and such, thumbdrive died. My lappy ever since that pops out blue screen error. T_T
7. Tmr got makan session again, with the penang bunch. ah.... Violet... *shivers* been getting too much goreng from her... X_X
8. I shld be slping liao... -_-ZzZZZzzzz
9. Did I mention michy went to BRUNEI? YESH!! SHE IS IN BRUNEI!!!! SHE DUMPED DITCHED LEFT ME AND WENT TO BRUNEI TO FIND HER PRINCE - WU CHUN!!!! XDDDD HUMPH!!! XDDD I FEEL SO LONELY WITHOUT U!!! coz nobody to bully... =X
I wana play online games... hand itchy until bu de liao... XDDDD
what to play leh... I wana play RO again... but memories will flood back... and I used to be sooooooooooooooo familiar with the game, now go back, sure kena bully until kau kau... maciam like newbie... T_T
that day go back gb abit.. already kena shoot by ppl kau kau... T_T I miss my boomer skill... :( I miss my high hit rate..... :(
I miss my life as a gamer... ps2, dreamcast, sega saturn, online games.... I wana play games!!!! >_< I love gaming.... XDDDD
Oh yea, i miss wc3... lolx.... used to play it like mad with my irc pals.... i miss those days.... i miss everything... >_<
why life must move on... why life must change... why cant it stay as wat it used to be... why must grown up... :( I hate all the changes.... I hate changes in human... in things... I HATE IT... X( everything seems so gone when it changed.... it turns into memories.... which feel so surreal.... wat i miss the most... is something that i am no longer suppose to say. =)
aiyo... lazy to compile... these are poems from Jin Pai Bing Ren... kope from somewhere... XDDD~~~~~ lotsa nice ones... XDDD~~ yes... my idols heats are back... temp put gazette aside.. =X i wan TVB stufffffffsssss..... XDDDD
*removes punk stuffs and puts on ancient chinese's clothings* *flips open the fan*
Been into punk, rocker, gothic stuffs..... but! recently, it become more and more obvious... XDD Ever since Nana... it didnt quite an impact on my style.. XDDD next is to slim down liao.. XDDDD
I painted my nails black.... putting lotsa leather wristband on my poor left hand, and lotsa metal chain on my right hand... XDDD been buying punk earrings... XDDD yea, my clothes arent punk at all! but, everyone has to go thru this semi punk stage when they are "evolving"!! XDDDD Guess, I need more cash and less fats to go my punk rocker way.... XDDDD
Caiqing say she would stay away from me if i really do rocker makeups and such... XDDDD
today is a spendiful day... XDDD been to chinatown's people's park three to sweep cloth for exhibition design... den sweep soem cheap necklace... those bear bear figurine.... outside selling $15+, I get them oni at $9... =P and then we march to far east to sweep more.. XDDD but i got quite a few punk stuffs which caiqing kenot tahan sia.. XDDDD
oh yea, i oso bought a ring for her.. and she wearing it on.... the finger which is meant to wear wedding ring!! >////< nah.. jk lah.... i where got so much fu qi... XDDD she juz happened to able to slip that into that finger, and it's the last one. the money arent mine too, is i owe her de... and she ask me to pay for it instead of returning her... XDD sounds so ai mei... XDDDD but, i enjoy teasing her and... BENNY~~ =XXX i can say watever i want here, they oso wont be reading them... muhahahahaa.... er... i hope? XDDDD
I was invited to a lesbian party by a fren from fridae.... feel like going.. but dun wish to go alone... yet... feel like going... so irony... @@;;; i need to fish a good target ya know? XP been thinking of someone i get to see in sch... xP she's cute, but it will nv happen... XDDD~~ coz i am too fat!!! lolx.. no lah... i bet she's a str8... XDDD~~
So hungry now... oni eaten 1 long john silver the whole day.....@@;;;
AHHHHH~~!!! I SAW A NEW ST'S ILLUSTRATION BOOK AT KINO!!!!!~~~ it's my fav illustrator that did that book!!! >_< arghhhh... it features ah! my godess too!!! >_< i wana buy sia.. but... 60+..... -__-;;; and i am so darn broke... coz i too devote into my punk way liao.. XDDDD~~ I wana dye some striking hair colour this CNY.... muhahahahhaaa.... XDDD~~~ YES I will go early... unlike last year... simi colour bun boh... XDDD
So long nv blog... and so irregular.... anyway oso nobody reads it bah... *sigh*
where is FLAVIA huh.... i am lazy to reply email.... u better email me who u are i tell u.... =X sounds so fierce... XDDDDD faster tell me who u are so we can go out together mah... XDDDDDDDD
Kk, time to surf abit and go zzzz..... tmr going... PRATA CAFE!!! but, b4 that, hab to go to Tracy's grandma's funeral wake... ><~~~
I wonder how will the club ppl react... upon seeing my black nails and.... leathery stuffs... and double chains stuffs... XP~~
kaoz.... finally everything finished!! all my submission ended!! XDD~~~~~ and... I PASSED ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL~~!!! =DDD~~~~~
But, I feel so weak and tired now.... my hands are still trembling.... too tired and worn out gua... still havent got enough rest.. but I already slp for almost 24hrs liao... cant slp further more.... @@;;;
I felt so uncomfy to be away from home so many days.... but at least, these busy days kills my moodiness.... so... now.. I feel empty again.... @@;;; missing someone i shldnt... xP
anyway, one of my proj is being selected for an actual project.... guess i wont hab time to rest these days as i hab to refine that proj so that i could meet the real client next week... ahhhhh..... doki doki desu!!~~ XDDDDD
I am so tired, but i needa fix home pc..... dying liao lah.... -___- sama like me.. both dying... XDDDDD~~~
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